Pogue Style

Chapter 1

TW: Panic attacks, mentions of alcohol, mentions of $H, abuse, swearing.
Authors note: If you ever feel like this feels too close to home, don't be shy to reach out for help. So many people are here for you.

It was happening all over again. The yelling, the screaming, the hitting. They promised me everything was going to change for the better and that this would stop. Why couldn't they pull through with that promise. Suddenly all I can feel is an aching sensation in my head as I get kicked to the ground, my father standing over me. "You are fucking useless! I hate you so much! I wish you would just be dead already!" My father yelled as bits of alcohol spat out of his mouth onto me. Those words hit like a bullet. My own father hated me, and all I could do about it was accept it. I hurriedly look around for my mum, trying to see if she will help me, but as my gaze reaches her, all I can see is her staring at me with no emotion watching it all happen. I just want this to be over.

POGUES POV:

"Jj can you stop fucking throwing beer on me for gods sakes!" John B yells at Jj for the hundredth time. They all felt bad for me because they knew everything that went on, but they knew that they couldn't do anything. Pope walks up to them as they start getting in a heated argument, trying to stop it, "You guys, just calm down, we can all sort this ou-" he quickly gets cut off by Kiara saying "Hang on be quiet Y/Ns calling me". They all go silent.

YOUR POV:

As soon as I get out of his grip, I run to my bedroom, lock the door and grab my phone, calling Kiara with shaky hands. "Please pick up.." I whisper while sobbing, until the line reaches her. "Y/N? Whats wrong why aren't you here?" She asks, even though she has a hint that she already knows the answer to that question. "P-please h-help me.. It's happening again I can't stop it I just want this all to end I-I-" I cry in a hushed tone before she cuts me off "Hey hey it's okay, I'm on my way now with Sarah okay it's all gonna be okay just stay calm". "O-ok.." I say as I hang up the phone, just hoping I can get out of this place soon.

A few minutes later, I hear a knock on my window. I look over to see Sarah and Kiara standing there. I quickly hop up, run over to the window, open it and hop out. As I get out, they both pull me into a tight hug. I don't hug them back, because I'm definitely not the kind of person who likes physical touch after everything I go through. "I'm so sorry we weren't here quicker, Pope slipped on the beer that Jj dropped on the floor and started crying" Kiara says while silently giggling. I start laughing too, trying to distract myself from what just happened. When we get back to the chateau, the boys all run up to me asking if I'm okay. I say I'm fine and I just need a minute to calm down and they all respect that. I walk inside and lay down in the spare bedroom, trying my best not to start crying again. Until someone walks in. "Hey.."