my forever lasting champagne coast

chapter 9 - siobhans miscarriage

Tw: miscarriage and mentions of abuse

A/N: Sorry in advance

“Shibby did you know you was pregnant”

(Siobhan's POV)

“What Viv there has to be some mistake, with the way Roger is there is no possible way that I could be” I say panicking.

“Well the ultrasound shows that there is a baby in there but there's no heartbeat so i'm going to assume that the pain you felt was the same one i felt three years ago” She pauses. “Bon bon you just suffered a miscarriage.” Viv explains to me as I sit there with a singular tear slowly flowing down my face. The guilty feeling that overcame me when she told me broke my heart because I would have loved to be a mother but just not with him. 

“Viv I feel so guilty he probably caused me to have a miscarriage, I just wish I knew I was pregnant so I had somebody on my side to help me through this.” I explained to her whilst laying in a wet patch from the tears that slowly cascaded down my face leaving indentations that someone could walk down like when walking down the street.  

“Siobhan, there's no need to feel guilty, it's not your fault these kinds of things happen to women all the time and bon bon i will always be by your side from now on” Viv says trying to reassure me.

Viv wraps her arms around me and holds me close as I cry into her blue and white striped shirt. I suddenly feel a warmth on my forehead and look up to face the mirror in the corner to see an outline of lips from where she had just kissed me. 

(Vivs POV) 

(Flashback to 10 mins prior)

After I rushed her into my office, I lifted up her shirt to proceed with the ultrasound and noticed there was a cluster of small bruises on her lower rib cage. I didn't want to question it as of yet because I know she will need some time to grieve before I am able to ask her any questions about what he is doing to her. 

As I complete the ultrasound, I help her get cleaned up before she proceeds to sit on the edge of the bed crying into me. That's when I get her to stand up before I proceed to kiss her on the forehead. 

I turned to her with a concerned look on my face before proceeding to ask her what that rat had done to her. And that's when she starts to explain. 

(Shibby's POV)

I freeze up on the spot for a few seconds holding back tears as I begin to explain to Viv what happened between Roger and me.

(flashback to 1 week prior)

  

I had just come home from a treacherous day at work that consisted of running errands for Roger. As I walk through the door I get hit by a strong smell of alcohol. Roger approaches me and grabs my wrist before throwing me towards the wall. As I attempt to pull myself back up he throws the glass vase from the side table at the wall beside my head causing me to fall to the floor once again. He then proceeds to raise his voice at me.

“SIOBHAN I TOLD YOU TO GO TO THE PHARMACY AND PICK UP MY HEART AND LIVER MEDICATION!!”

I was then met with his fist hitting me in the ribs causing me to cough up blood and struggle to breathe. I blackout…

(End of Flashback.)

“I don't remember what happened next but I can only imagine he carried me upstairs and forced himself onto me sexually whilst I was unconscious.” I could feel the tears building up in my eyes and once more I froze to the spot afraid to move in case Viv judges me. I start to think about her leaving me which causes even more tears to fall. 

(Vivs POV) 

I turned to Shibby, who had a traumatised look on her face, with a sympathetic smile before I then proceeded to tell Shibby about my past with my ex-boyfriend. 

(flashback to 3 years ago)

I went home to tell my boyfriend the heart breaking news that i have just been told. As I walked into the house I could hear the cheerful laughter coming from Jamie and Jonathan. I looked around the corner into the living room to see the boys sat playing with Jamie's legos, it looked as though they had made a rocket and was pretending that they were sitting inside ready for it to take off.

I went into the living room and Jamie ran up to me and hugged me with a massive smile on his face. I looked down at him placing a kiss on his forehead before asking him if he would like to go to his memaw's house while me and his dad spent the night together. Before I could even finish my sentence I heard a loud scream come from Jamie saying yes. 

I rang my mum to see if she could come and collect Jamie so I could speak to Jonathan about what my colleague has just had to tell me. 

“Poor Abi”. 

Before I knew it Jamie was being rushed out of the door by my mum and now me and Jonathan are alone.

I decided to just break the news to him and before I could do anything I felt a sharp sting appear on my left cheek before I then felt the same sting on my stomach. 

(End of flashback)

 

“Siobhan my love I know exactly what you are going through so i can imagine the pain and suffering you are experiencing. When it happened to me all i remembered was the fact that he just kept punching me and slapping me causing bruises all over my body to appear slowly over the following weeks” i say to her after i start tearing up just thinking about the damage he caused me over the years.

 I realised that Jamie probably picked up on my emotions so I made sure to hide them away from Shibby so that she didn't think I was trying to draw attention to myself. When my ex-boyfriend saw me releasing even a tiny little bit of emotion he would call me childish so now i'm scared to even show emotions around the people i am even closer to. 

Siobhan looks at me in utter shock and wraps her arms around me before I speak to her again. I look down at her with a small smile before I pull up enough courage to make a promise I'm not sure I can even keep.

“Bon-bon I promise I will get you out of this and protect you. You will forever and always be mine.”

A/N: Thank you to TheCherryColaBomb for the help co-writing this chapter.
There will be more to come that are like this lol.
good luck with whats planned.