My Life With a Gangster

Chapter 2

   After Kole and I finished looking around the house I decided soaking in a bubble bath in our beautiful bathroom was a perfect idea. It still doesn't feel real that this is ours and the start of our life together. I leaned down further into the hot water shutting my eyes, taking in a few deep breaths. I feel like there are so many things on my mind that it's hard to sort through them, and even harder to try and get past it. My therapist says I need to give myself time and grace, that I need to focus on one thing at a time but it's so much easier said than done. 

  Once I felt the water start getting cold I decided it was time to get out. I slipped my robe on and made my way to the closet to grab some comfy clothes to put on. I'm grateful  Laurena  knows with all the hard floors around the house that slippers are a must have. After getting myself semi-together I took the elevator to the second floor so I could use the steps for exercise. 

  The walk down the steps felt good, I was a little sore on the way but as bad as when I first started moving around again. The sound of a loud thud made me jump, I looked around trying not to panic so I could figure out what was going on. I took a few steps toward Koles office to see if he was in there when I heard glass breaking followed with yelling. 

  "I don't give a fuck! He is not resourceful enough to still be in the wind. I want him found and I want him taken care of!" he screamed into the phone.

  I haven't walk in yet, I decided to stand outside the door and listen in. I know Kole is so worried about my stress and anxiety he won't finish his call if he knew I was close by. 

  "Well look again, someone is helping him. Once we figure that out we can find out if he's planning something or if hes just dodging punishment for everything he did." He said in a little calmer of a voice. 

  "Alright thanks." he replied to whoever he was talking to before putting the phone down. He looked so frustrated as he sat back down in his chair. 

  I opened the door a little more before clearing my throat and getting his attention. As he looked up at me I could see the frustration turn into worry. He sat up straight before speaking. 

  "Hey baby is everything okay?" 

  "Yeah" I started as I walked over to him sitting on his lap. "What was all the yelling about?" 

  "Nothing really, just business." he said looking away a little. 

  "You don't have to lie to me. Thats not what we do. We tell each other everything, even about business and whatever comes with it." I replied not taking my eyes off him. 

  "I know I'm sorry I just don't want you to be stressed over anything while youre still recovering." he said in a low voice. Hearing that hurt me, I want him to be able to lean on me like I can him.

  "Look, I know what happened scared you. But I'm not some dainty flower or a victim. I'm strong and I can handle it. I want to help, I want things to be how they were before-" 

  "Before what Lexi? Before the first time you were kidnapped or after the second time when you almost died in my arms and were in a coma for a month?" he said in a stern tone. I know what he means but it hurts to hear. 

  "But I'm here and alive. Working on healing and look at where we are. We are safe and I don't want us to be distant or hide things from each other." I replied while holding back tears. "Everything I've been through before and after all that should show you how strong I really am."

  His face softened after seeing me get a little emotional. He always has been able to see right through me. After wrapping his arms around my waist he pulled me into his chest.