My Dear Seatmate ♤ Classroom Of The Elite ♤

I shouldn't be here

There was a time when I thought that everything I felt was due to my inexperience with girls. Can you believe that?

It was complicated being with you from the start, because my time as a free man was limited and I had already accepted that. Having feelings for you made everything even more complicated, making me want, for the first time, to deviate from my immutable destiny even though I knew it would probably be a futile effort.

Horikita, would you believe me if I told you that I cheated on you not to get away from you, but precisely because I wanted to be by your side for much longer than just three years?

AYANOKOUJI KIYOTAKA

I sat down close enough to feel the warmth of Horikita's body, I didn't know I needed it until now. I felt the air get heavy and Horikita's body stiffen as soon as she felt me, I signaled Ryuen to leave us and he left.

Silence hung over us like a cold, damp sheet, Suzune didn't move or say anything, she didn't even try to move away. It was strange to see her so quiet in a place that wasn't the classroom. What was even stranger was that I had nothing to say in a situation that I had set up myself, perhaps there was nothing to be said and I had just gone there because I wanted to see her.

I tangled a lock of her hair in my fingers and she sighed loudly. Say something Suzune, I want to hear your voice.

Horikita slapped my hand away and turned to face me, her red eyes shining in the dim light. She opened and closed her mouth several times, trying to find something to say, and I just waited, watching.

Until she simply turned and disappeared through the same door that Ryuen had gone through a few minutes before. I don't know what I expected from this encounter, but it certainly wasn't that. Maybe deep down I wanted her to shout at me, hit me and spout everything that had run through her during the long time we'd been enemies, because then I'd know where to start trying to make amends for what I'd done.

I smiled to myself, for the first time I found myself with no plan in mind. Was there really anything I could do to fix this?

KUSHIDA KIKYO

I was smoking my cigarette on the roof of the building when I heard the door behind me being flung open at once. I tried to get rid of the cigarette I was holding in desperation, but found no other option than to throw it down the building.

I sighed with relief.

— What's your problem?

— What's your problem?

He merely returned my question with a retort.

— You owe me a cigarette, I had just lit that one — I cursed.

— And why did you throw it away then, you lunatic?

— It's none of your business — I turned my back on Ryuen, the night was getting worse and worse.

First, Suzune disappeared and now Ryuen found me just when I wanted to be alone and made me throw away my last mint cigarette. I could whine or kick him in the balls, but I chose the safer option.

— It was my last mint, you asshole! — I muttered, lighting another cigarette.

— What a shame, two-faced.

We were silent for a moment until a noise came from the front door of the building and there was the girl I'd been looking for almost all night, just as I was about to turn around and go after her, Ryuen uttered two words that hit me like a punch.

— Ayanokyouji is back.

I paused for a moment, trying to take it in. After everything he'd done, I'd never have imagined that one day he'd turn up again.