𝟑𝟎 𝐃𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭

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At night, while I quietly revieweing and taking down notes in bed.  I heard the door open and my brother's trembling silence engulfed every corner of the room.

"Fourth."  He gazed at me while standing near the bed.

"P' Dunk..." My voice sounded nervous.

"We need to talk. And, I don't want you to lie during this conversation."  He said calmly.  I closed the page of the book I was holding to give him attention.

"P' Dunk..." My voice shaking, "Are you mad because I fell in love with a man?"

"No... I accept you no matter who you are or who you want to be."

"Then why do you hate Gemini so much?"  I asked him in a polite tone.  I never raised my voice to him.

"Because I don't want to hurt you. You're my little brother. If you think that love is all about happiness and romantic excitement, you're totally wrong. Maybe the person you love doesn't hurt you, but you don't realize that slowly-  Love is killing you. The longer it lasts, the more painful it will be. And that pain will not heal quickly, It will leave you a scars, Fourth. Have you forgotten that you are sick? It's not your sickness that will kill you, but your feleing." His voice shredding apart, holding his emotion, "Does Gemini know that you are sick? Does he know that your heart is weak?"

I sigh heavily, "What do you want me to do? D-Do you... Do you want me to break up with him?"  My voice shattered as I shed tears, it was hard for me to breathe.  I looked hopeless crying while staring at him.

"Can you do that... For me? Or even just for your sake? I don't want to lose you. I can't handle it."  He breathes as he gazes at me.  It seems that there is no other way for me to convince his mind to change, and allow me to be with Gemini.

"P' Dunk... I love him. I can't do what you want me to do. It hurts me even more when he's gone."  I shook my head while whimpering.  I remained calm in that situation, despite my breathing getting heavier.

"I want to support you as best as I can, but this situation you are in right now... I hope you never met that man." His voice was broken when he blunted. There was a trace of disappointment in his eyes before he turned his back on me and went straight out of the room.

Suddenly, I heard my phone ring and his name appeared on the screen.  I wiped my tears and took a deep breath to compose myself before talking to him through the call.

"Love."  I said on the line.

"Love, tomorrow is the weekend. I want to ask you out on a date tomorrow... I want to make up with you after all the shit I've done."  He said.

"Ohh..." I can't hold my tears anymore, "Sure, where do you want to go?"

"Why is your voice like that?"  He asked, "Are you crying? Did you and your brother fight?"

"No."  I sob shakingly, "I'm crying because of the movie I'm watching— hormones they say."  I lied to cover the thousand drops of tears that ran down my cheeks.

"How about you? Where do you want to go?"  He asked me back.

"Anywhere... As long as I'm with you."  My voice shuttered.  I covered my mouth so that he could not hear any noise of my sobbing.

"Do you want me to pick you up?"

"Don't worry. Let's meet where we're going."

"Okay... Get some rest. I love you."  His voice was soft.