My Roman Empire

~Guilty as sin~ part 2

I don't know what I was thinking when I came here ,and how I wanted this night to turn out to be. But I knew one thing too well.

It was, maybe, loneliness or longing after years of running from something that was catching up to me,and it was him. The more I stared at those eyes with an uncanny boldness that I didn't know I have,the more I realised that it might not be the aftermath of a broken relationship that took me here.

Somewhere,I thirsted for this man,and I wished with all my heart I didn't. But there was nothing that could explain why I was forgetting all the horrible things,as I could look through the carnal desires he had for me. Subtle,yet obvious. Just like all those years ago.

It hit me.

"This is not me. I gotta go."

I turned around,and I could see some eyes staring a little at me as they suddenly remembered a little about him and me.

I can't. I can't.

I felt a sudden anxiety that I didn't anticipate.

"I don't care how those people think of me." I thought to myself.

I started walking really fast when Rachel stopped me.

"Leah,where are you going?"

"Just to get some air,I think I had to make a call back at work."

Not this bitch again.

"Leah,Can we talk?"

I looked at her sternly through my racing mind, hoping she'll get the memo. I didn't want her trying to talk to me again, especially about that.

"No, Rachel."

Above all the hate,I loved this woman so much. I did everything that I could for her. Everything. I would have given her my everything,she was a family I could never have.

And naturally,I expected her to have my back. Oh,what a naive woman I was.

"Leah,I-"

"If you have to talk about that again, please stop. I'm not in the mood and I don't care anymore."

"Okay,but let's go together, shall we?"

I don't have any reason to reject. It's okay for now.

"I was wondering why you were in such a hurry. I almost thought that I'm the one who scared you off."

I heard his deep voice so close to my back that I felt my skin Crawl. So deep, something that is both scary and enthralling to me. I saw hi shadow cast over mine,and I took a deep sigh. I should have seen this coming. That is what I came here for, right?

"Oh,um,hi Adam. How have you been?"
Rachel turned around to look at him,a sense of detest and nervousness in her voice and body. She gave me a nervous side eye,and then looked at him again.

I turned to see him. He was way closer than I thought.

He looked like a man now. A very godly handsome guy I would fall for if I didn't know him too well.

"Um,I guess I will leave you guys alone?" Rachel whispered a little closer to my ears as I grabbed her hand and said,"where are you going?" Loudly. Oh shit.

She looked repulsed by me. Funny,how she wanted to be sorry a while ago and is mad now, acting like this doesn't involve her at all.

"If you shout that loudly someone will think I'm trying to kidnap you, Leah."

I wonder if that's a joke. Or a reality.
Or both.

"Do I need to be aware of the mighty Adam though?"

I wasn't backi down,I gave the most sarcastic scoff to exist in mankind. Gosh I'm making a joke of myself.

"You say that but you are not looking ate Leah. I wouldn't be too sure if you didn't. "

I was taken aback,and in a second,I looked up , and into his eyes. There he was this. Tall ,dark, handsome Adam. The one I lothed ,but mostly regretted about meeting.

Yet there was him, infront of me,all because I had hoped so. He knows this too,and maybe that's why he is smiling, looking down at me,as his entire being could overpower me any way,if he wanted.

However,I could see his amusement beneath the smile he was giving me.

"Guys should we go join others?"

I almost forgot about Rachel. Funny.

"Yeah we definitely should, shouldn't we,Adam?"

"Only if you are saying that." He said as he came closer to me. I could feel his presence too strongly.

I would have loved this banter back in the day. It feels so similar it's scaring me.

He is so close that I can literally feel his presence, probably because he's staring as if he'd kill me. Shit.

I should probably go along before I figure out how will this night go.