Multi-Fandom One Shots

Regret ~ Makoto Tachibana

Warning: this oneshot is very angsty.

"Haru!" I called.

He looked back at me with those beautiful sapphire eyes.

"I'm glad I found you! I need to tell you something." I said.

Haru stayed silent and waited for my answer.

"Haru, I know we have been best friends ever since we were little, but now I have feelings for you."

Haru looked into my eyes with the saddest twinge of guilt.

"I'm sorry, Makoto."

That was all he said as he left to go home. My heart is shattered and stomped on. I know lots of girls like me, but the one time I said my feelings, I get hurt. I ran back home regretting everything.

*the next day*

"Makoto, it's time to get up." My mom said gently.

"Mom, I don't feel really good, could I maybe stay home?" I asked in a raspy voice.

This voice was fake, I just didn't want to get out of bed.

"Are you ok? What happened?" My mom bombarded me with questions.

She then put her hand on my forehead.

"Makoto, you don't have a fever, you're going to be ok." She says sweetly.

I groan and get up. I hate what I did. I hate myself for what I did. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything. Once I was finished getting dressed, I went downstairs.

"Oni-chan!!!!" Ren and Ran yelled.

They tackled me in warm hugs which just sickened me.

I want to be the one to give Haru a warm hug. I want him to give me a warm hug too...

"Oni-chan, what's wrong?" Ran asked.

I looked down at her face and said "Nothing.", smiling as if nothing was actually wrong.

I didn't want to eat. I didn't want to do anything, but nonetheless, I have to go to school. I walked without Haru to school. I just couldn't bring myself to say anything to him. I couldn't even bring myself to look at him.

"Mako-chan!!!!!!!!" Nagisa yells.

Nagisa comes running up from behind me. He hugs me tight with his head on my back.

"Yes, Nagisa?"

"Haru-chan and Rin-chan are dating!!!!!!!" Nagisa giggles with happiness.

"What?" I asked.

"Haru-chan and Rin-chan have been dating for the last few weeks and are now in a relationship!!!! Isn't that so cool?!" Nagisa smiles.

"Oh, yeah." I say.

"Mako-chan, aren't you happy?" Nagisa asks.

"Yeah, I'm sorry. I just have a lot on my mind. Actually, I have to go to the bathroom. Bye Nagisa!" I say.

"Ok, bye Mako-chan!" Nagisa waves to me.

I run to the bathroom and start to cry. 'How could he? Why would he just not say anything to me? Am I not good enough? Am I just too ugly for him? Maybe it's because I am always so annoying. Why does it have to be with Rin? Why?' I thought. Thoughts just came flooding to my mind as I think of Haru and Rin's relationship. My friends were dating and I didn't have a clue until now. I immediately feel nauseous and horrible. I threw up in the bathroom and got sent home that day.

*a few days later*

I stopped going to swim practice. I started to hate him and everything about him. How dare he not see that I am better than Rin? How dare he think that Rin could ever be better than me? He would be happier with me, but he's too blind to see that... I'm better than that red headed asshole. I can be a much better boyfriend. How could he choose Rin over me?

"Guys, I'm quitting the team." I said emotionlessly.

"Makoto Senpai, you're joking, right?" Rei asked.

"Sadly, I'm not Rei. It's just a lot of stress for me." I explained.

"Mako-chan, please don't leave!!" Nagisa begged.

Without looking back I walked away. I knew that Haru was staring at me though. I could feel his eyes burning into the back of my head. I could feel his cold stare. I know that he is disappointed. And I know that he should be. For now, I couldn't care less. He is so blind to see he would be happy with me. Oh well. His choice.

I ran back home on the verge of tears. I went to my bedroom. I collapsed on my bed and sobbed into my pillows. I looked up and noticed it was too silent. I shouted for my parents and for my siblings. No one came. I guess that means I'm alone.

I stood up and went to my bathroom. I looked at my face in the mirror.

"I look so pathetic. No wonder why Haru doesn't like me. He probably hung out with me because he pitied me. I look so miserable." I said to myself.

"I'm so sad and miserable. I look stupid. I'm so stupid. Why am I so fucking stupid? I'm stupid enough to fall for my friend. I'm so fucking stupid! Why?! Why am I so fucking stupid?!" I scream as I punch the mirror.

The shattered glass fell in the sink and I picked one up. 'Hey! I'm miserable. I'm lonely. I'm sad. I can't really do anything right now. So, why not? It's not like anyone would even care?! Right?!' I thought.

These thoughts kept on circling in my head. They kept on echoing in my brain. They kept on reaching deeper into my head until I finally gave up.

I took the shard and slid the sharp glass across my wrist. I did this again and again until I had lost consciousness. I knew that it was over for me. It was over for my heart. It was the end of my love.

I saw Haru above my grave, holding Rin's hand. I saw him weeping at my funereal. I saw it all. I saw Nagisa become depressed. I saw Rei try to help him stop harming himself. I saw Gou trying not to cry every night. I saw my father become an alcoholic. I saw my mother fall into depression. I saw Ren and Ran, my two siblings, grow up to be sad and depressed. Ren had anger issues and hated when my mother mentions me. Ran had affairs with people to try and distract her from the loss of my life. She had trouble sleeping at night. She always thought I was watching her and that I was disappointed in her. And I regret it all. Down to feeling sad about Haru. I regret ever doing that. I regret everything, but it's too late.