conviction // a troy lougferd fanfiction

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His ears were ringing as he stared himself down in the mirror. He hadn't seen himself in the mirror in years, but right now he saw the blood on his face, on his clothes, on his hands even after washing it off. He heard Mays scream echo in his ears as he looked into his own eyes lost and empty.

And then he looked down, the cross dangling from the chain around his neck catching his gaze. He pressed his lips together, feeling the guilt like chains wrapped around his body. He couldn't breath, panic setting in when he suddenly felt his knees hitting the ground, hot tears streaming down his face.

He remembered all the hangovers on sunday mornings in church, all the mocking and hate he directed towards those around him, all the egoism and it all bound him, paralyzing him as he squeezed his eyes shut, when suddenly he saw the vision of a bright light in front of him and then arms, warm and tenderly wrapping around him and then a voice, audibly whispering into his ear with a kindness no one could ever spare for him before. "Tramilton, you are mine", with those words all the chains he felt dissolved into thin air. He began shaking, weeping as he felt the warmth enter his chest, his heart and in that moment he knew, even though he did not deserve it - he was loved and he was free.