The Grass is Always Greener on the Other Side (NOT FINISHED)

Chapter 5 (Carathea's Perspective)

Sometimes, I think back to when I never felt left out. I was so much happier. Now, I feel as though I have been forgotten. I know that's not my friend's intentions, (or maybe it is...) but sometimes I feel like they're deliberately trying to. We've all been friends for as long as I can remember, but the boys have turned into someone else. Someone I barely even recognize. I hate to say it, but I think they might be slowly moving on from this friend group. How is that even possible? We all care about each other. But I might be trying a little too hard. I was the one that made the rules for the Amis Pour Toujours. It's almost like they've forgotten that I might be the only reason that this friend group is still here. The only one that I feel like actually cares, is Katie. She has always been nice to me.

Katie gets up, and I wonder where she's going. She opens the back door with a blanket. I wait a few minutes until I follow, so that it doesn't seem weird. I peek around the corner with a friendly smile. "Hey!"

"Hey."

"What are you thinking about?" I sit down next to her on the swinging bench hanging from the ceiling of the hangover.

"Oh. Just... stuff."

 "Very convincing, Kates." I say, narrowing my eyes. "You can tell me anything, you know."

"I know..." She says, rubbing behind her ears.

"Then what's bothering you?"

"I just... I... Sometimes I look to the moon and wonder if my mom is looking back... I know it's stupid-"

I cut her off before she gets too carried away. "No! Kates! It's not stupid. It's perfectly normal. You lost her 2 years ago. You're still grieving." I say, trying to reassure her. I'm positive it worked. She rests her head on my shoulder, and I rest my head on hers.

I miss when life was simple. When all I had to focus on was to be happy, and to make friends. Now, life is about good grades in school, and trying not to cry everyday from your heart shattering. Sometimes you just feel like falling down, and those same times you feel like there's no one to hold you up. And others, you feel comforted by those around you. Always find the people that hold you up. Don't be around the people that will try to push you down for no reason; or maybe they do have a reason, but don't let that stop you from doing what is right. My mum used to always say, "If you're kind, you are always right. If you are not, you are always wrong." I guess I took that for granted. I never knew that it would have such a big effect on my life, on me as a person.

Same goes with other people. It's a weird thing. It's 2016. Shouldn't things be perfect?

A quote in my favorite book, "Divergent", by Veronica Roth goes, "People, I have discovered, are layers and layers of secrets. You believe you know them, that you understand them, but their motives are always hidden from you, buried in their own hearts. You will never know them, but sometimes you decide to trust them"