A month later
It's New years Eve yeah neh the end of such a wonderful era , a lot has happened in just one month Ibanzi and myself linked up again he took me out on a date and it was perfect we clicked it was honestly just so wonderful it happened once or twice and I never saw him again
I told Asemahle that I already had my first time she was disappointed in me , and I in myself but there was nothing I could do to turn back the hands of time and plus the sex was really good and amazing I honestly don't blame some people for being addicted
It's New years Eve and it's one of those meetups where our moms combine families and have a combined celebration since our mothers are friends
"Mngani I have been sick lately "
"I saw , you even vomitted yesterday morning "
"I think maybe it's bugs or something "
We were sitting in Asemahle's bedroom chatting about anything and everything , I see her glancing at me and looking at me with a shocked expression
"What did you do now ? Talk?"
"Ziyanda!! Are you sure you not pregnant?"
"No I can't be pregnant I drank morning after pills "
"When?"
"After what two days later?"
"Uyahlanya yini wena ? That shit isn't even 100% and worse 72 hours later what if it didn't work haweeee ma!!"
"That's not true I highly doubt "
"Okay let's see the symptoms you are vomiting and always fatigue "
Tears roll down the cheeks as realisation hits me that I might be pregnant, my entire future is ruined honestly what will my parents even say ?
We enter the new year nicely , happiness and a lot of venting sessions it's just the same old tradition and for the first time after the fireworks I head to sleep I feel and sense Asemahles judgement in me but I'm also brushing off the idea that I actually might be pregnant
The following day I wake up clean the house , wash the dishes while jamming on jhene aiko's album my iPods in my ears
A knock comes through the door just as I finish cleaning and it's Sinakhokonke wearing a blue summer dress with adidas flops
"Ubani lowo?" That's my mother wearing only her robe
"It's Sinakhokonke "
She looks at me and shakes her head she's never really been that much of a fan of her I close the door and we go outside with Sinakhokonke after talking , I didn't tell her about the pregnancy honestly It's not confirmed yet
We finally decide on heading to the near shopping Centre , Mega City just to buy a few things I ask mom for permission and she agreees after too much convincing
When we arrive at the mall , I head to clicks alone and buy a pregnancy test the shame in my face as I pay for it at the till my eyes hooked with the cashier
I slip it inside my bag just to avoid it being seen by Sinakhokonke
We head to kfc and grab some dunk wings , as soon as the smell hits me I feel nauseous
"What's wrong you never say no to dunk wings our favourite?"
"No chommie I have lost my appetite , you can have them can we go home now"
The anxiety of finding out the results about my next 9 months is eating into me very badly
The taxi drops me off at the gate and I head inside I find my mom watching Rea tsotella
The famous show in the family
"Ziyanda I need to talk to you "
"Okay ma"
She points the sofa with her head and I sit down rubbing my hands nervously on my thighs
"What's going on with you lately ? Are you okay ?
"Yes ma ngiright why ubuza?"
"You always tired , yesterday you made your father coffee with salt , you slept right after fireworks and you always groomed up in your room "
"I don't know maybe it's just a phase "
"Which you need to talk about , most importantly stay away from boys they will get you pregnant and Nawe uyabona isimo la ekhaya we can't feed you as our child and feed your baby don't you dare "
"Haibo ma why talk about pregnancy"
"Because I need to adddress it you need to know the circumstances of your actions "
I hurriedly stand up and head to the bathroom and pee on the stick , I take two just to get enough assurance I say a silent prayer and commit myself to god if I am not pregnant
I call Asemahle for support just to help me view the results
Asemahle is the closest thing I have to a best friend even if I'm the last person to admit it but I trust her more than I trust Sinakhokonke
We are more of the same person , Academics but just not when it comes to decisions and friends in that me and her are opposites
"Open the door "
I open the door and she closes it's , turns the key and looks at me and to the two sticks on the basin
She reads the instructions out loud
"Positive is two lines ,negative is one line"
I nodd my head and she picks up the sticks , she swallows hard as she looks at the results and she glances at me and utters
"Two lines positive"
