It's been a week since I've been discharged from hospital , I didn't go back to like with Likhona instead I found a joint apartment with me and Asemahle in La Lucia it's very spacious and big enough for both of us she goes to UKZN so sometimes she's not even around
I gave birth to a healthy baby boy , Ntandoyenkosi just as my grandmother wished that's my honor to her he's so adorable shame my instagram has been busy people found out about my relationship with Likhona and it's been a buzz but at least I'm getting offers to collab with different brands
"What are you thinking about ?" "My life " "Where to from here ?" "Yes , that I need to apply to study at least second semester so I can take care of Ntando in the meantime " "Ohhh okay when last did you hear from Likhona?" "The last time I saw him was when I gave birth it's still foggy I don't think we are ever gonna be together " "Yes , you are like his stepmom in a way " We laugh at that
There is a knock on the door "Are you expecting someone ?" I shake my head , slip my feet into the slippers and walk to the door I'm only wearing my red dress it's pretty short not too shirt though and a doek covered around my head I walk to the door and it's a beautiful lady , long ass weave and an office suit with heels and a Steve Madden handbag with a white iPhone 15
"Hey I am looking for Ziyanda Khumalo" "Ohhh , I'm her how can I help you?" "Ohhh so you the little homewrecker " "Excuse me? Ukhuluma ngani?" "Listen here , I don't know what game you are even playing on but it's over stay away from my son and my husband do you hear me ?" "You must be Mrs Zulu " "Write it down honey , I hate you okay and you will never be my daughter in law while I'm still alive and you had better keep that thing you call a baby away —-" "Ungakulinge ungidakelwe Mina you know nothing , I don't care about that husband of yours neither do I have an interest of marrying into your family now get the fuck out of my house manje !!!" "You are even disrespectful, ismilo siyaxega kuyokusiza ukuthi ungilalele ntombazana and stay the hell away from my family " With that said she swirls around and leaves the house
I shut the door in anger , my baby starts crying the baby monitor goes off I fix myself and walk to the nursery "Hey baby mommy is here " "Are you okay ? " Asemahle enters the room with a baby bottle "Yes I will be okay it's just the Zulu's " "Nothing lasts forever my darling nalokhu kuzodlula" "Thank you Asemahle , I mean for everything "
Likhona's POV
It's another wasted day in the club , for the past two weeks life has been at a standstill it's just the same routine everyday go home , freshen up and go clubbing or grooving with my friends we get high most of the time and just drink all my problems away and it always ends with me sleeping at one of their houses with different girls
I'm on my way home listening to the radio I'm not that invested in what's playing but it's keeping me going , Mariah Carey's song "without you" starts playing in the car
"No, I can't forget this evenin', or your face as you were leavin' But I guess that's just the way the story goes You always smile, but in your eyes your sorrow shows Yes, it shows
No, I can't forget tomorrow when I think of all my sorrow When I had you there, but then I let you go And now it's only fair that I should let you know What you should know
I can't live if living is without you I can't live, I can't give anymore I can't live if living is without you I can't give, I can't give anymore"
A lone tear rolls down my cheeks as I replay all the memories we shared together , I miss her like crazy and whenever I'm home I make sure I enter the room she used to occupy since it smells like her it doesn't feel okay calling the place home because the person that brought all the love and warmth is gone
I finally park my car in the driveway and get inside my empty house I walk upstairs to my room and it's the first time in two weeks that I have came home not tipsy or drunk yep that's how much I've been living for alcohol The picture hung up on the wall in the corridors of me and Ziyanda catches me attention I love it but I hate it at the same time
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The events of this day are spinning in my head , I walk to the spare room and grab a bat and I bang it on the portrait "Why!why!why! Why Zee" A grown ass man cryyyy yes that's me that's how much the pain cuts deep ,how will I ever love her again
I grab my phone and tap on her album , just sitting down on the floor scrolling through her pictures , the videos of her I took while she didn't notice I watch a video of her trying to dance the baby mama challenge
"When this song come on let me see you get goin' Baby mamas, this your song Been pregnant for way too long Now tell the DJ turn it on, yeah If she a baby mama, she gonna do that baby mama She gon' put it on ya She gon' do that baby mama Drop it down, drop it down down low Drop it down, drop it down down low Drop it down, drop it down down low Do that baby mama when I step out on the floor"
She keeps trying to Twerk while I hype her up , wearing her leggings and tank top the first time we said we are trying yoga together a smile creeps on my face as I smile at the moments when I was actually happy
"Knock knock " "Get the fuck out !!" I don't care who it is , I just want to be alone "Big brother " I turn and look at londi standing at the end of the passage just after the staircase "What do you want?" "I brought ice cream and Oreos "
Flashback: She's running around in the kitchen while I try to catch her , her radiant smile glistening everywhere you wouldn't miss the happiness on her face "Wait sengkhathele manje ?" "Would you say that if I was a serial killer wait time out I wanna take a break " She giggles again and even snorts "Likhona this situation is different futhi mina I'm hungry manje " I walk up to her and kiss her sweaty forehead and entertwine her hands into mine "What do you wanna eat princess Diana?" "Oreos and Ice cream " "What why? You said you were hungry " "Exactly bae that's food" "I still don't don't get why" "Are you kidding me that's the best combo in the universe I could eat that every day no boredom " "Don't you feel cold or something ?" "You should try it " "It might as well be my favourite combo too " "Don't abuse it phela " I laugh at that and start taking out the ice cream and the boxes of chocolates Since then there was always Oreos available and ice cream in the fridge
End of flashback
"I don't like it anymore " "No ways you can't get me hooked on something and leave me hanging like that " I keep quiet and bow my head in between my knees "Likhona Zulu I don't know you like this ,bro you have been through a couple of break ups this isn't the first one " "You are old enough to notice that this one is different " "I get that but you can't drink your problems away , you reek of alcohol " "That's the only way to escape her smell , her memories in my head that's the only way I can do that " "There's other solutions and don't try to forget her " "I can't have her , londi what is the child going to call me ? Brother I can't lie and say he's my son " "Baba was wrong " "Let's not talk about him please " She keeps quiet and I just keep staring at the cracked /broken portrait on the floor
