The trial end. Panalo kami. Before doing anything else, I thank all the people who helped me to get through this.
Pumunta ako sa puntod nila Dione at Tasha at pinaalam sakanila ang nangyari.
“Today was a very tiring day. Wala na akong energy hahaha”
I sat down, trying to embrace the cold breeze.
I looked around the cemetery and was amazed on how fascinating it was.
I looked at the bright sky, as I try to remember everything about them. I remembered how I manage to save myself from Astra.
FLASHBACK
“Evacuate all the visitors!”
“Sunog! Tulong!!”
“Pls head this way, faster!!”
Dinig kong sigawan ng mga tao. Pero bakit ganon? Bakit parang ang lapit nila? Para bang nandito lang sila sa tabi ko? Malapit na malapit sa pandinig ko.
I tried to get myself up. Kada galaw ko ay kumikirot ang mga tuhod ko, sumasakit ang ulo ko't nahihilo. Umiikot ang paningin ko at nahihirapan ako sa paghinga.
“h-help...” I tried to call for it, pero wala akong lakas na kahit sarili kong bibig ay hindi ko maigalaw.
“u-ughhh” daing ko nang matumba ako nang sinubukan kong tumayo.
I tried and tried and tried, but it was so hard for me. In the moment that I thought I would lost in my own consciousness, someone tries to open the door.
They kicked it.... really hard...
“May tao, save them!” rinig kong sigaw ng lalaki
“Humihinga pa, stretcher!”
“Miss, huwag kang matulog” sabi ng lalaking may hawak sakin habang inaalog ako.
Naramdaman ko nalang na parang lumulutang ako bago ako tuluyang mawalan ng malay.
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“u-ughhh, my h-head h-hurts..” dahan-dahang sambit ko nang magkaroon ako ng malay.
Sinubukan kong tumayo ngunit agad akong natumba sa sahig.
I roamed my eyes around the room. Wala akong ibang kulay na makita kundi puti. Am I seeing the way to heaven? I thought to myself.
“Hala ma'am, ano pong nangyari” the nurse said while helping me to get up
“Nasaan ako?” mahinang tanong ko
“ma'am nasa hospital po kayo”
“For how long?”
“Almost 4 days po ma'am”
Damn... That long??
The nurse and the doctors do their things in my room. Kung ano-anong gamot ang itinurok nila saakin.
“Are you good?” Tito Nate, Tasha's father said.
“Ok na po”
“It's ok hija, you just need to say anything that happened in the beach, but if you still can't, that's fine, we will move it when you feel better”
I tried to think. And then... I remembered her...
“Tito, nasaan po si Astra?”
“Hindi ko alam hija, pero for sure naman ay kakausapin yun ng mga pulis. I'll talk to her para rin makausap mo siya”
I paused for a while... She's the one who...
“Tito, can we make a plan po for Astra?”
“What is it?”
“I didn't want her to know that I'm alive, not until we meet in court” I said, starring at the wall blankly.
END OF FLASBACK
Nagbagsakan na ang mga luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan. Lumabas na ang mga emosyon na ayokong makita at malaman ng iba.
It was hard for me to accept that I lost everything in my life. I lost my mom, Tasha, and now Dione. Nagsisimula palang kami, pero bakit natapos agad? Bakit parang ang bilis masyado?
It was though for me. But still, Dione's family was there, and Tasha's too.
Pagtapos ay umuwi na ako. I roamed my eyes around. Ano pang gagawin ko sa mundong 'to? Kinuha na nila ang pinaka importanteng tao sa buhay ko. I lost everything so how can I live again my life?
I long for gentler world for myself. A past less fraught with challenges, a present less burdensome, and a future that holds the promise of lighter days.
I then start asking myself “Were we born to live? Were we born to die? Are we living to die? Or are we dying to live?”
The knife I have been using mere moments earlier was lying on the tiles, just over to my left. I only noticed it there now. Because grief has painted my life, it's hard for me to welcome any stroke of brighter colors now.
I felt the sharp end of the knife poke to my neck. Bright, bloody liquid fall from my hand down in a steady stream. It was a bit warmer than I expected.
This was more impulsive ; not that I'd really given it much thought. I had come across the wild conclusion that it might satisfy my grief, somewhere in the depths of my uncontrollable anger.
I felt no pain. I felt none. This is so peaceful than I expected.
Maybe in another life, we'll have the best moments together. Maybe in another life Dione, we'll be growing old together. Maybe in another life, we'll achieve our own goals we have set for each other. Maybe in another life, our love will last until eternity....
Maybe goodbye for now?
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