Where families Meet KTH FF

6

Life Update: CHAOS. PURE CHAOS.

So, yeah, my dear sister Anna's wedding is fixed. With Jeon Jungkook. The guy is all rich, good-looking, and... ugh, perfect. And me? I'm stuck watching reruns of my favorite series in my messy-ass room while the world spins into chaos around me. Mom's turned into this superwoman-on-steroids kind of person, buzzing around like a caffeinated bee. There's barely a month left, and it's all "venue this" and "decor that." Meanwhile, Anna's flipping between being excited and completely freaked out, like one of those malfunctioning robots.

And me? Sarah? The ignored elder sibling? Distant. Detached. Avoiding everything. Just vibing with my snacks and Netflix while everyone runs around like headless chickens. I should care, I guess? But nah. Life's already a mess, so why bother adding more drama?

Anyway, sitting on my bed last night, I thought, Why not open the old dusty diary? Maybe pour out some profound thoughts about life. Or just rant about the most embarrassing thing ever that happened yesterday.

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Date: Why does it even matter? Life sucks.

Dear Diary,

Let's talk about the walking icicle I just met-aka Jeon Jungkook's brother. If Jungkook is a dreamboat, his brother is like the Titanic, cold and sinking vibes. He's distant, he's rude, and he acts like he's allergic to humans. Like, excuse me, Mr. Freeze, who even invited you into my life?

AND THEN IT HAPPENED.
Yesterday. Ugh.

Me being a broken bitch, just wanted to cry on my stupid fate and curse myself for being the most boring species in this world....until that voice broke me out.
AND HE WAS JUST STANDING THERE. IN MY ROOM.
Like, WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL?! How long had he been there? What did he hear? WHY WAS HE EVEN HERE?! He just stared at me with that cold, judgmental expression, like I was some escaped zoo animal. I swear I wanted to vanish into thin air. I managed to croak out something like, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN HERE?"
And this absolute statue of a man was already there, found out he just gone for a quick wash up.

The audacity.

Anyway, I'm still debating whether to curse him forever or just avoid him for the rest of my life. Maybe both. Probably both.

End of rant.
Time to cry into my snacks and figure out why the universe hates me.

Yours,
A very mortified Sarah

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After scribbling that, I slammed the diary shut and buried it under my pillow. Not like he'd ever find it. Right? RIGHT?

Right, he would never. Actually, no one could. They will prolly see this stupid book as some last stage of getting pried away...

So where was I? Yeah. Recently, My work progress is still on progress.. the idea of barista was a turn down, I still didn't got any messages from the company I applied for as a freelancer and about that tutoring job! I still didn't got it... So in short, I am still unemployed.. but but but!

Your Sarah isn't some kind of person who can give up-
Okay wait, I do give ups on certain things BUT this is special.
I got an online jobs as a Database Writer. which means I will have to write data entries, specific contents writing from certain companies and maybe I could earn handsome amounts if my writing gets popular. Although, it needs investment for me to start up this whole thing.
Fine enough, I will get the double amount of earning than my investment.

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"Sarah!" I pause my work and look up to see Anna peeking in my room.. "what?"
She walk inside without closing the door which I hate the most. Her face seems as if she have something to say very important but I can't help but to be suspicious. What can be the thing which made her come to ME??

where is her Guardian angels aka mom or even better.. her FIANCE?
"I have to go somewhere!"
"Then go?" I said it disbelief! The fuck she is asking me permission to go out? She seems distressed.. shooking her head she leans in.
"I mean, I have to go somewhere far!"
"Then Go somewhere far, why are YOU asking ME-
"Dude you are not understanding! We are planning to go to Thailand!!"

"WHO'S WE???"

"ME AND JUNGKOOK!"

Oh-

Wait-

"Wait! Are you saying, you are asking MY PERMISION to go to Thailand with your fiance? Did you finally gone crazy?"
"Oh come on! You are the eldest!"

"I am not elder than our parents got it? Fuck off!" I push her away breathing heavily...just what the fuck she think herself as?
"PLEASEEE!! just say Yes to this vacation of mine and I will handle the rest?"
"Does my yes will make mom allow this?" I asked with pure sarcasm and the next thing she nodded hurriedly..

My jaw dropped..

"She would let you go Thailand alone with Jungkook?? SHE WILL?"

"Err-- partially yeah!" My eyes were wide... This is seriously not fair...

She will go to Thailand with just a single yes of Mine but I, myself can't go anywhere out of this city!
And she's fucking travelling to another country.

"Please Sarah! Only you are my hope.. please say yes to this request of mine! I promise I owe you for this!!"

"I can't understand a single thing, how come you are born with a golden fate?" I muttered under my breath, frustration growing inside me... I look at her pleading gaze which were litteraly begging me...

Okay, I am her elder sister. As an another compromise.. I sighed

"Fine!-

"THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!" She jump on me making me flinch hard... Her rare acts will lead me to ICU one day.. "aww sissy thank you sooo much!" I look at her horrified who was fist bumping on my chest acting like who knows.
"First of all, stop being so cringe and act humane." She battle her lashes on me making me blink twice. Shocked
"Kook said he love it when I act like this?"
"Now who's this hook-

"Kook!! Jungkookie!"

"Door is over there..kindly leave!" I point my finger at the door with a resting bitch face. How in the world someone can support such violance activity?

She walk out happily while humming some strange melodies.. I look down at my flickering screen of laptop with complete mess... The screen suddenly turning off and my face appeared on the black screen.

All I could see was an exhausted, tired old girl with still a young youth inside who never experienced a single fun. From homeworks, project, to assignments, deadlines and exams pressure.. I ended this journey of mine with a normal degree. Normal life.

Where does my childhood go?
Where does my youth go?
Is it still alive somewhere or is it dead?
The question is..
Am I alive or dead?

Why I am suddenly going in a poetry line? What the fuck is wrong with me?

*TING TONG*

I Look at my phone which pings a notification.. it was a notification from insta fyps.
I ignored it and shut the laptop.

"Maybe I need some sleep!"

TBC