A Slow Burning Torch: Alessia Russo

Alessia's Diary Entry

Dear Diary,

I'm a fan of Vivi from her vlogs because she just seems like a genuine person. After I met her at my game earlier today, I made a list of things I know about her and the type of person that she is. I'm not going to lie, I was not ready for this. I don't think I'm ready for her.

I need to work on accepting myself first. I've never really dated anyone, so I'm hoping that the media doesn't find out too quickly. I feel like my feelings aren't valid, I kinda think that I might not even be ready to come out to myself. I don't really get why. I mean, I have the most supportive family in the world and some of my closest friends are gay.

The Vivi crush started a few months ago when I saw a video where she was in Indonesia teaching kids English. She was just so patient with them, and everything about her was beautiful. I'm usually a bubbly, giggly person, but all of her vlogs made me laugh so hard. She was always pranking people in the funniest ways, thinking of clever ways to solve problems, and trying to make the world a better place.

From her vlogs, I made a list of all of the nice things I've seen her do:

1. Biked 5 miles in the rain to go to her friend's birthday party when her car broke
2. Bakes her friends a cake after a breakup
3. Built homes for the less fortunate during her summer holiday
4. Woke up early every morning before school to cook her friends breakfast
5. When her friend was upset, she stayed up until 2am talking to her and then woke up at 5am, just in case her friend woke up because she didn't want her to be alone
6. Kept every letter her sister ever wrote for her
7. Has her friends over every single Sunday for dinner, even if they don't ever bring anything for anyone.
8. Cooks her brother dinner every single night when her dad is away
9. Drives her friends to and from parties, even if she doesn't go
10. Gives her coat to her friends, even when it's snowing and she's only left wearing a t-shirt
11. Learned how to play the guitar so she could sing to her dad
12. Volunteers at the food pantry during her free time
13. Works with kids with disabilities and plays sports with them
14. Gives her friends spa days
15. Hosts holiday parties for all of her friends, all throughout high school and when she comes home from Uni
16. Delivers her friends and relatives homemade desserts after every time they've done something worth celebrating.
17. Her life dream is to travel the world helping people, especially little kids
18. Wakes up at 4 am every year on her dad's birthday to make him a special breakfast
19. Goes to every single band concert, track meet, baseball game, and hockey game of her friends', even if they don't come to her concerts.
20. Writes songs for her friends 
21. Drove 3 hours to pick her friend up from boarding school on a school night when her friend's grandma passed away
22. Spends hours helping her friends with homework
23. Sends treats and videos to her sister at college
24. Surprises her sister at college, even though it's 1000 miles away
25. Every single night she's home, without fail, she hugs her dad and brother goodnight
And the list goes on and on and on...

I truly don't think girls like her are actually real. There's no way someone can be so nice. I know this is just what I've seen on YouTube, but she has my heart. I can't believe she actually knows who I am. I've seen a few vlogs where she's talked about her love of soccer, but it was mostly in the context of her teaching kids how to play when she went to Africa. She's actually not bad to be fair, but I she stopped playing after her teammate passed away. She's the cutest thing ever, she was talking about how her trip to Africa reignited her love for the game.

Also, I hate to be shallow, but have you seen her...? She is a legitimate supermodel. Being friends with someone that attractive has to be challenging. Her eyes are a cold ice blue, her skin pale with a few freckles, dark brown hair that extends just past her shoulders, and pillowy cherry lips. I also hate to objectify her, but she has a body that everyone dreams of. A faint 6-pack, and a chest and butt that people spend their whole lives trying to get. 

I'm sure she has guys and girls from all over the world after her. I also can't believe she likes girls, but she's made vlogs in the past about how guys try to "turn her straight." I still can't believe she asked me out on a date. I did just recently become the highest paid female footballer in the world, but she comes from money. And she's famous, so she doesn't want me for my fame or status. I don't understand, in any way, why this girl in single. She asked me, a girl from Maidstone, on a date. If it goes well, I don't ever want it to end. I'm already in love with her, and I haven't even met her yet.