Maybe it was a mistake? Why did i do it. My life has been.... Trouble. Since Taurtis and I fucked with the watchers temple- my head hurts so much more now, recently ive also noticed- blood. There is blood coming from my head. Taurtis seems unbothered other than the occasional bloody nose, i havent told taurtis about the blood- im honestly scared to! How do i explain to my long time lover that my head has been in pain and now is bleeding! Ive had pearl look at me head, she noted down there was slits, perfectly even to each other. But it is never enough to kill me, they bleed madly like a busted need or a cut, i just dont know why its happening. And why it started.
My back is now hurting! It hurts. It hurts so goddamn bad! I told myself to stop with the profanity! But its so hard to stop when im in constant pain! Taurtis has gotten the best of it. But holy shit. pearl noticed the same slit like openings on my back! The just. Much much bigger. It barely bleeds because pearl noticed a "jell like pouch", inside the slits. But it feels so uncomfortable-, i feel like im dying. My body feels like its crumbling and worst of all. My memories are fading-
I remember going to highschool with Taurtis! I do! Ive written in this journal about him so many times then! But i can barely remember him being there! Why is my memories of my lover going away. What is happening to me.
I have WINGS. WINGS. HOWD I GET WINGS!? The slits turn into my growing wings. First that came in were from my head. It hurt so bad, but i felt so relieved-
There was so much blood when cleaning them- when the ones on my back came in, I nearly passed out! I felt like i was bleeding out! There so much blood and it hurt so so bad!! But i have wings... white wings? Mother and Father despite them leaving me behind, they were humans- im supposed to be human! Im not supposed to have. Wings.
Taurtis had the scare of his life today too! Not just with my new wings but his right eye has began changing color! Its not black anymore! Its turning PURPLE. PURPLE!? PURPLE ISNT A NATURAL EYE COLOR!
He already has natural heterochromia, black and blue. BUT PURPLE AND BLUE IS NOT NATURAL!!!
I. Im losing myself. I can't remember my lover from highschool at all- was he really there!? Or am i just delusional!? Ive also been having. DREAMS. Dreams of eyes. Many many eyes. All purple. All watching my every move. Its so overwhelming! Pearl says shes now also being affected by them too! How are we having the same dreams. About the same thing-? Im so confused- why did it just start happening- does this have something to do with taurtis and I fucking with that temple-??? Even then! Why is it affecting pearl!? She wasnt there! She didn't participate in that!
So. Im starting to see myself in mirrors with purple eyes- even purple eyes surrounding me- i even get more wings and they turn purple in my reflection- im scared. Someone save me- Evo isnt safe- i dont feel safe anymore! Im forgetting my husband- im scared- im scared dont let me forget. I cant forget.
..I got a divorce. I cant handle it anymore. Im feeling haunted. I close my eyes and i suddenly see my friends. I watch their every move. I- I dont want this- im sorry i did that to their tomb. But i hate this- its so scary and im terrified- im just 22-
Something. Strange happened. He went missing. God i forgot his name. I remember his face, just barely though. But he went missing, i saw him yesterday, but hes gone, no one has seen him which is super duper odd! Ive also been getting super sick, im not sure why- also! I have forgotten to mention a random portal opened, it appears only pearl, martyn and I can see it though- ive asked Jim and BigB if they see what i can see, they always say no and say im seeing things and just need some sleep. But everytime i get sleep like they say. I still see it...
THE PORTAL BROUGHT ME SOMEWHERE. ITS DARK. THE ONLY LIGHT IT FROM ME. MY STUFF IS GONE. ITS ALL GONE! IM NOT. IN EVO ANYMORE- IM SCARED. IF ANYONE READS THIS. SAVE ME.
So.. its been months. Since i wrote in this journal- I escaped- they held me hostage and they hurt me, they "taught" me how to be one of them. My stomach feels bad all the time like they put something in me! But all that matters is im safe!
I ended up in a random server- they call it "hermitcraft" everyone is super nice! Im staying with I think the head admin, he says his name is Xisuma, I call him X-i-suma just to make him mad, its super fun!
Ive been in hermitcraft for about a few weeks now! Ive gotten to meet some of the other members, im gonna be honest! I already have 2 favorites! Scar and this guy Mumbo Jumbo! To me they look really- familiar!
Dont tell scar! I like Mumbo more! Mumbo is super fun to watch, Mumbo sometimes shows me the ropes with redstone when Xisuma doesnt wanna as he says "babysit me", im not a baby! Im just 23! But its still fun to watch mumbo play with that red dust!
I started building, i did! X no longer needs to watch after me, he labeled me as an official hermitcraft member! I moved as close yet far from Mumbo as i could, i made a biggggg! Base! It has not back but ill get to it! i promise!
I met another avian!!! She has wings just like me! Not on her head but shes an eagle! Her name is False I believe, shes super nice and shes been teaching me how to fly!
Since my wings are new, i had to get used to stretching and preening them before we started the process of flight, being in the air makes me feel free even when i cant be up there too long due to my wings not being as strong as hers!
I've officially been on hermitcraft for 3 months as of today! October 19th! I joined in July! Hermitcraft has been good to me, though... a strange thing did happen...
I did not know that i could- wait do i word it as laying an egg? Cus i didnt lay it- birth? I DUNNO! But i had an egg... an. EGG.
Uhm- THIS IS ODD.
X was so confused when i came stumbling in with a giant egg in my hands, i was confused too! I mean i know im an avian now, but i didnt expect to lay an egg.
I know have a kid yayyy.... Like what do you mean im a single parent at 23??? I DIDNT HAVE SEX WITH ANYONE! That i can remember at least... the kid looks odd, but ima be honest, hes cute and ill gladly take care of him! Mumbo also offered to help me take care of him! We named him Grumbot because of his robot like appearance, its all so odd but i do love this silly little kid!
As of today, Grumbot is a few months old now! But its so odd.. he looks like a 3 year old, hes talking and hes walking like one too! His first word was calling me mom! It was cute to be honest! Never thought id go by a female term again since i came out as trans, but ill gladly accept the title of a mother! Because technically i am-!
Grumbot called Mumbo dad today! It was weird! But mumbo didnt react the way i though he would've, Mumbo just laughed and said something along the lines of "Yeah sure, ill be your dad". LIKE HOW SWEET IS THAT!?
So- Hermitcraft 6 has ended-, im scared because what if i cant bring my son with me! Mumbo said he is gonna talk to X to see if we can bring Grumbot to the new server!
It also makes me really flustered and giggy inside whenever Mumbo takes care of Grumbot and gladly call himself Grums dad in public! In human years Grum is 4, hes so happy to call Mumbo his dad and i love it so much, i need X to say yes with us bringing Grumbot to the next hermitcraft season!
So! Lots has happened since i last wrote in my Journal, we're 2 months into Hermitcraft 7, and X had said yes to us bringing grumbot, also with this server change, it appears Grumbots growing process has slowed, I believe hes aging normally now, Grumbot lives with Mumbo at the moment since ive been a bit busy- but Grumbot is happy to live with his dad! Oh! I also forgot to mention, Mumbo and i talked it over and we're dating now too! My wings have also gotten colorful! Theyre now the colors of a beautiful parrot! I love being a parrot, fits me to be honest
Im afraid this is gonna be my last journal entry for a while- they found me! The watchers- im scared!
Ive been huddled away, im going to hide this journal. Im going to hide myself. Who ever is reading this. Im sorry. I dont know if i will make it out alive or even see hermitcraft again. Or my son...
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THE END. FOR NOW.
