Every part of me

Inconsistence

I'm sorry I pushed you away when I don't feel okay.

That happened months ago, but clearly, you're still hurt from that cause it keeps surfacing when we get into arguments.

But you should know,

I've changed since then,

I dont push you away anymore, cause i realized that what i was doing was not fair to you.

I respond to your texts when I'm upset about something you did, even when I didn't want to.

You said you wanted reassurance that we're just having a fight.

And I gave that to you, cause I know you were right.

I stopped being silent when im upset

because you told me it gives you anxiety,

So instead, I tell you what made me upset,

because i dont want you to have anxiety every time that I'd become quiet.

But in return for all that, what have you given me?

You pulled out!

You stopped putting effort when we're in bad terms.

You dont listen to what i have to anymore. It almost seems that my silence would be the best way to get you to listen to me, but i know that won't work anymore.

We used to make up after hours of fighting,

but now, those used to be hours would sometimes turn to three days without speaking to each other.

I gave you what you asked me to, but where's my assurance?

What's left for me in return?