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Chapter Six

Today was supposed to be a day where we could have fun without the cameras. It's a Monday, no stream and nothing work related. I had a big plan today, maybe I could finally get past the kiss and ignore the situation that was happening.
I want Railo to be the same as it was but I know it won't. I see Rai and all I see is someone who played with my feelings, it made me question my feelings for her in many ways.
Was I feeling attraction towards her?

We went to the park and decided for a picnic. I miss our dates and time together.
I smile at her and gave her a hug, "Ugh I love this!"
She seems chill, like nothing happened between us two and everything was back to normal but I knew something was different about her.
Her phone kept vibrating, like WhatsApp notifications.
I thought it was her mom or someone in her family but it was not. I saw the name on it and it caught me off guard. She's never mentioned a girl to me, neither a name I've never heard of.

The picnic went on, I didn't question it nor cared at that moment because I know she has the right to have other friends besides Alex and I. She gets up to go and get us some ice for our sodas, and I saw her phone laying on the grass, my eyes were quick to spot a name.
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Fuck, is she talking with someone? There was a picture that lead me to believe she was. The picture had a naked person, I'm guessing they're nudes. I quickly picked up her phone and scanned the picture, a woman with red hair wearing lingerie.

I see Rai coming back and I quickly set her phone back down. I look away and swallowed a big knot in my throat.
There's no reason for me to be jealous, we were never dating nor romantic for each other anyways.
Ugh, I hate this feeling. The feeling you get when you did something you shouldn't have, is it guilt? But for what! For finding out that she's indeed speaking to someone that's not me. I get up and I look at Rai. I grab my camera and my bag, "I have to leave."
Rai gets up, "Okay let's go then."
She grabs everything and stuffs it into the basket she brought for us. We then start to make our way towards her parents' car.
"Why did you kiss me?"I quietly said, knowing that she could either lie or say the truth.
She stops walking and I stop.
I turn to look at her.
She looks pale, like something I said hit a nerve and she was showing an emotion she could not hide.

I wanna know why she kissed me, isn't that too much to ask.
"I asked you a question!" I yelled out, feeling frustrated, "Nevermind, it doesn't matter why, it got us views."
I turn and walked away.

I gulp, feeling my body tense as I feel her walk by me.
"Hey, Michelle!"
Calling me by my second name.
I grip the camera with both of my hands, small hands that can barely cover the device.
"Hey." A simple Hey, nothing confusing nor anything.
I caught her reaction in a matter of seconds.
She looked disappointed in my response.
"Michelle, why the attitude?" She grabs my arm and that's when I knew I hit a nerve. I never know when she's going to react negatively towards me.
I look up at her, why does she have to be almost a foot taller then me. I roll my eyes and grin, "Rai, what are you talking about? Attitude?"
I pull my arm away from her grasp, that too hit a nerve. She clenches her jaw.
"Look, what happened that night was just for views, nothing more...nothing else."
She said that, but I knew it wasn't truthful. Her eyes said one thing while her mouth said another.
"Okay, and I understand that. By the way, 40k viewers was crazy! I guess we should make more streams like that. But hey, I got to go, I have to go meet up with a friend for lunch," I quickly shut down the convo since I knew it was going to get long if I didn't.
I walk past her and left to go, leaving her alone at the park.
She should be okay, he parents are near by anyways.

Why should I care? There goes my caring side, I wish I didn't feel so much empathy for her.

I go inside my Uber, there I felt my phone vibrate. A notification, Rainelis is live.

She's live right now? I barely just left her.

"Guys I have news, but you all will have to wait for tomorrow's stream. It is awesome news and I think this might change some things, hopeful for good. But anyways, I will catch you guys later on. Love you all!!"

News? What kind of news?

I felt nervous and kind of scared.

But I know Rai, or I knew, I don't know anymore.
I feel like I'm loosing her.