I Fell In Love With My Brother (A Janoskian Twins Story)

My Whole World Falls Apart

Jai Brooks @JaiBrooks1

@luke_brooks you will understand what I mean someday little boy, once you start to show interest in woman that is

I am currently staring at the same tweet, at the same thought I had back then when Luke tweeted me I make him sick of being so in love with Ari. I couldn't blame him for it, he never felt so serious about anything like that recently but I know someday he will. Someday he'll understand what it is like to be so in love with a woman and what does it feels like to be loved back. But I'm afraid he'll find it too soon, I am afraid it'll hurt me. I am afraid I had said a sentence so wrong before this and I don't know what that is.

It's Jai Brooks again, mates. I know you're kind of tired of reading my POV which is full of hallucinations and daydreams about Luke but I am still hoping not. I hope you enjoy reading this because my mind is relying to all of you. If it wasn't for you who are reading this right now, I might be already losing my mind.

But first, I hope you have known of me. I hope you have searched for me and I hope you have liked me because that could be much more overwhelming. If not, it's still okay. I can imagine you imagine a different kind of face, maybe the face you really want the most, while reading this one and it's okay but promise me if you haven't see me or Luke or Beau or James or Daniel, promise me that you'll come see me before you finish reading this one. Please. I would love you to recognize me, to make a memory of me. Thank you.

I guess I am too lost at my own thoughts that I haven't noticed Luke's already leaning over my shoulder from behind to see what I am doing. My heart skipped a beat and I froze. His arm snaked around my waist and he suddenly kissed my cheek that a part of me wants to vomit right then and there but a huge part of me was surprised. This is insanity. What had just happened? Slap me.

'Hi, love.' He whispered against my ear and I winced at the sound. He sounded so sweet, so inviting, so sexy, so-

'That's disgusting Luke, quit the play.' I said. I lied.

'I'm just being sweet to my little brother and this is what you'll give me as a change? Fine.'

I can feel him withdraw his arms that I want to stop him for doing so and let him stay still but no, I can't do that. Fuck

'So what's for breakfast?' He said, walking towards the kitchen to find nothing.

Beau didn't left any food at the dining table for breakfast. He said he has to go somewhere that doesn't include us so he left again. Beau is always leaving nowadays and I wonder what is he doing. I stared at Luke as he run a hand on his hair, frustrated. He must be hungry. I was about to ask if he'd like me to cook or buy him food when his phone rang.

'Hello?' He answered softly then; 'Oh, Cathryn! Yes.' He's nodding his head as he walk at the couch to sit across from where I am.

Cathryn. A woman. He's talking to a woman and I felt my nerves burn at the thought. There are a lot of butterflies in my stomach and the caterpillars were evolving into new ones to make the number of them increase. I gulped.

'I'll see you later then.' His eyes met mine for a moment. I can't fucking look away. 'No, Jai will be here so, yeah. Is it okay?' And he nods again.

If I only have super powers to hear things up close, I would be hearing what the girl is saying right now but I can't. I can only see Luke nodding and nodding and nodding and saying goodbye. I am having a guess right now and I am afraid my theory is right.

'Jai, can you buy me food? Cathryn is stopping by for the night and-'

Fuck. I never have the chance to hear him finish because my head is already flying somewhere. I can't fucking think straight. Luke wants me to buy food not for the two of us but for the two of them. God, since when I became a personal maid of my own house. I shouldn't be sounding so bitter but I can't help it. Luke never invited a woman to come by before.