I Hate You

#10

Next morning

Jungkook wakes up with a stiff neck, his body cramped from sleeping in the chair. He rubs his eyes, looking at you still asleep in the hospital bed. He stands up, stretching his limbs before leaning over to kiss your forehead gently. "Good morning, baby." He whispers.
You wake up feeling something soft on your forehead, your stomach curl up. But you don't want those feelings to grow. "jungkook you don't have to do these things...I mean I'm..I'm not comfortable..so--"
Jungkook's heart sinks at your words, but he tries to hide it. "Not comfortable with what, YN?" He asks, his voice calm but his eyes filled with a mix of concern and possessiveness. He sits back down in the chair, his hand reaching out to gently hold yours. You slightly removed your hand.
Jungkook's face pales, and he looks down at where his hand rests on the blanket. "With me being here? With me wanting to take care of you?" Jungkook's expression hardens, his jaw clenched. "Yn, I promised to be honest with you. But I need the same from you. Talk to me. Why aren't you comfortable with me?"

"j..Jungkook what you did to me one year ago...I still can't accept you..you forced me jungkook"

Jungkook's face contorts in pain as your words hit him like a punch to the gut. He remembers that day, how he lost control and forced himself on you. He remembers the tears, the fear, and the pain in your eyes.

"I begged you Jungkook, but you didn't stop."
Jungkook's eyes glisten with unshed tears. "And I regret it every day, Yn. Every. Single. Day." His voice breaks, and he looks down at his hands, balling them into fists. "But I can't change the past." Jungkook stands up abruptly, his chair scraping loudly against the floor. "And I wasn't. I wasn't there for you when you needed me most. I was the reason you were hurting in the first place." He runs a hand through his hair, tugging at it in frustration.

"Jungkook, I understand that, and you feel guilty about the past, but let's focus on the present and ensure the safety of our baby. It's important that we prioritize a calm and safe environment for everyone in this room. Can we talk about how to achieve that?" Looking at the incubator beside your bed.
Jungkook takes a deep breath, trying to compose himself. He looks at the incubator, his eyes softening as he sees their baby. "You're right. I'm sorry for losing control." He sits back down, leaning forward with his elbows on his knees.

"When will I be discharged?"

Jungkook looks at you, his expression hopeful. "The doctors say you can go home in a couple of days, barring any complications. I've made arrangements for a private nurse to come home with us to help with your care."

Few days later (discharge day)

"Jungkook... I'm asking you directly.. do you want Seungmin?"

Jungkook blinks, taken aback by your sudden question. "Seungmin? Yes Yn. I want him. I want you. I want both of you. Why would you ask that?"

"ju.. jungkook I'm asking if you want this baby to yourself or I'll take him with me..."

Jungkook's face turns pale, and he stares at you in disbelief. "You can't be serious. You can't take our baby away from me, Yn. I won't allow it. And what do you mean by I'll take this? You both are staying with me right? You are staying with me." His voice cracking.

"ok...then..You can keep Seungmin with you. And im not staying with you. It was your right to know about the child. As long as you want Seungmin, then I guess in free. take care of him. I'll not interfere in both of your life. just don't tell him I'm his mother..." Trying to act cold but deep down you are breaking.

Jungkook's eyes fill with tears, and he looks at you with a mixture of anger, sadness, and desperation. "Yn, please don't do this. I love you, and I love our baby. I need you both in my life. Seungmin needs his mother."

"Marry someone else Jungkook. we are not married either or I can accept you all these things you did to me...so I've to leave..."

Jungkook grips your wrists gently, his touch pleading. "Ynaaa, look at me. Look into my eyes and tell me that you don't love me anymore. Tell me that you want to leave me and never see me again. I know I was a jerk to force on you but I swear believe me, I will be the best man and father for both of you. Please Yn don't leave m--me"

"j.. jungkook my love died that day you did those things to me...yes I loved you, I loved my enemy but never thought you would do anything like that..."

Jungkook's grip on your wrists loosens, and he falls to his knees in front of you, tears streaming down his face. "Yn, please forgive me. I know I hurt you deeply, and I'll regret it for the rest of my life. But I never stopped loving you. I--i was a jerk that couldn't control my motherfucking hormones, it's not that I never regretted. I regretted from the day you left me then. "

"I wasn't love jungkook, it was lust."
Jungkook shakes his head vehemently. "No, it wasn't. I was out of control, yes, but I loved you. I still love you. And I know you still love me. I can see it in your eyes, Yn."

"No.."

Jungkook stands up slowly, his voice low and intense. "Then prove it. Prove that you don't love me anymore. Walk out that door and never look back. Leave me here with our baby and never contact me again." He steps back, his arms open in a gesture of challenge.

"I'm not coming back to you." You looked at the baby. Jungkook watches as you pick up Seungmin, holding him close to your chest. His heart shatters into a million pieces as he realizes you're really leaving him. He tries to reach out for Seungmin, but you hold the baby tighter, protecting him from Jungkook's grasp.

"Let me hold him a little more" your eyes teary. Jungkook hesitates, then steps back, allowing you to hold their baby. He watches helplessly as you cuddle Seungmin, kissing his forehead and whispering soft words to him.

Jungkook stares at you, disbelieving. "You're really doing this. You're really leaving me." It's not a question, but a statement filled with pain and anguish.

"I already left you that day. There's no coming back"

Jungkook's face pales, and he looks away, blinking back tears. "So, you're going to disappear from our lives completely. Is that it?" His voice is barely a whisper.
You said nothing but left the hospital after giving Seungmin to his father glancing for a last time.

Jungkook's driver drives you to your old apartment and watches you disappear into the apartment building. He video called Jungkook, who's hunched over on the sofa of his temporary apartment, tears streaming down his face. "Sir, should I come back later to pick up more of her things?" He asks softly. Jungkook just nods miserably.

In the afternoon~
Jungkook's driver helps you carry your bags to the bus, his expression somber. "Miss, are you sure there's nothing I can say to convince you to stay?" He asks quietly. You just shake your head, your heart heavy with unshed tears.
Jungkook's driver watches as the bus pulls away, carrying you further and further from Jungkook and Seungmin. He pulls out his phone, calling Jungkook. "Sir, she's gone. She boarded a bus to California."

"Feeling like, I've lost you again. But this time for eternity.

(To be continued...)