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🏥5th of December😕

~y/n pov~

My mom has been sick very long time. She has diagnosed to cancer. Today I woke up I heard coughing in the bathroom. Normal she usally does it. But this time it sounded like she was in pain and the cough were forced to come out. I went to the bathroom (this can trigger someone who doesn't like blood)

⚠️I  saw big spot blood. It was on the sink. On the floor. It was dripping from my mom's mouth. This was the worst I seen. She couldn't take any air to her lungs. I needed to call the ambulance.⚠️

Mom please stay I need you mom you need to stay with me. I said while crying next to her. Then  the parametrics came and took my mom. I went to the ambulance too. The drive felt like hours. My mind was fuzzy. I remember when my dad left us when my mom got diagnosed to cancer.

(Flashbacks to 2022)

"I am leaving I am so sick of this family. I can't be with sick wife and mentally ill child so I am leaving I will never see you guys" He said and left the house.

I am so broken. I looked my mom. She was crying. I hugged her. I just wanna have normal family. My brother killed himself  beginning of this year and now at the end of the year my dad left us.

(End of the flashback)

We are at the hospital. I looked my mom. She had a oxygen mask on. They took my mom inside and I walked inside too. Right now I needed billie's music, but I didn't have my headphones on me. I went to the waiting room. After 30 minutes a doctor came to me sadness written to his face. I looked him. Nervous and anxiety started to crawl into me.

I am sorry but your mom has died. He said apologizing. I looked him and started crying. I needed a minute so I walked out of the hospital. I sit to the ground. The ground was cold and wet. I cried in there. I couldn't breathe so well. I didn't care what people would think about me I needed billie's music right now. I opened spotify and clicked billie eilish. I cried so hard on the ground. After a hour two police man's got me home. I went to my bed.

Next day I woke up. My eyes felt puffy and my throat was sore. I was hungry, but we didn't have anything. So I needed to go buy food. I put on billie hoodie it always helped me when I was sad and then I put on some sweatpants from yesterday. I took 20$, my phone and headphones. I got out of the house. I connected my headphones to my phone and put on billie. I listed her music while walking to the shop. I felt like the whole world was on my back. And I felt so depressed. I felt the same when my brother died. I had zoned out to my thoughts that I almost got hit my a car.

I finally made it to the store. It was small and usally there were couple people no more. I took some takis and chocolate. Then I remembered I needed food too. I grabbed pizza and now I was ready to go pay. I went to cashier. I paid my things and left the shop. I was walking home. I had zoned our again to my thoughts. This time I hit something. Or someone. Oh shit I just bumped into a person.

Oh shit I am sorry. I said and started helping the person up.

No worries hey you look like you had cried like 36 hours non stop are you okay? The person said. Then I realized the voice. It was BILLIE FUCKING EILISH. I started sobbing immediately and she pulled me into a hug. Then Odessa came out of the car and looked me and billie.

Billie is she one of your fans? Odessa asked. Billie nodded. Then she pulled away and looked me. I really looked like I been crying for 36 hours non stop and that I haven't left bed in three days. I wiped down my last tears.

Well I think you wanna keep going with your friend so I should just leave. I said picked up my groceries. But billie stopped me.

Odessa is it okay if we go there tomorrow? Billie asked. Odessa nodded and smiled.

Yeah I don't care when we go trifling. She said.

Okay cause this girl looks like she needs help and she looks really bad so I wanna make sure she gets home. Billie said.

What is your name? Odessa asked. I looked back up.

Uh y/n. I said.

Okay y/n you are gonna get ride home so come on. Billie said. I nodded and she opened her car door. I went to sit there. How lucky I can be to sit in a car that billie eilish owns. Odessa and billie went sit too and billie started driving.

Okay just give the address. Billie said. I nodded and gave her the address. She started driving there.

After 4 minutes we were there.

Okay we are here let's go inside. Billie said. I remember that I didn't clean the house and especially the bathroom was still really dirty.

Uh my house is a big mess right now. I said bit embarrassed.

How messy? Odessa asked.

Well if you don't look at the bathroom then you should be fine my room isn't tidy but it's not that bad that the bathroom is. I said. They both nodded.

We went inside. I put the groceries to the kitchen table and went to my room. It had couple clothes on the floor.

Sorry my room isn't that clean. I said.

Can I ask how old are you this house looks like family house? Odessa asked.

Uh I am 17. I said.

17!? but why do you own this big house? Billie asked. But before I can say anything I heard my dad.

WHERE ARE Y/N?! My dad yelled.

Uh guys wait here. I said and left my room.

Ugh what do you want dad you said you will never see me again. I said

The polices said I need to take you with me for that you are 18 so come on pack your things. He said.

Okay first I don't wanna leave. Second how do you expect me to react you just come here and say pack your things you are coming with me. No thanks I won't leave I hate you when you left me and mom alone. So go! I said. He looked me like he would punch me. But then he left.

I went back to my room and just collapsed to the floor crying. Billie and Odessa came next to me. They looked worried.

Can I ask why do you life here alone? Billie asked.

My..mom....she died yesterday due cancer. I said sobbing now harder. Billie looked Odessa. Billie pulled me into a hug. I cried in her arms. She relaxed me. I looked her and i wipe off my last tears.

Sorry about that i cried. I said, but billie looked at me with her sweet soft ocean eyes.

Don't say sorry you know it's not your fault that you cry. I wanna ask something so do you wanna have a sleepover with me and odessa it would be fun. Billie said. I looked at her. Was i in a dream? Was this a dream? Why would billie hang out with me??

yeah i would love to hang out with you guys. I said. Billie smiled and got up. I got up too and i started packing some clothes. A t-shirt, some pants, a hoodie. Okay i am done.

okay let's go. I said. We three left the house. I was so happy right now.

A/N: yeah i don't really like this one the start was good but the end is bad sorry