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coming out

💕2nd of December🏳️‍🌈

~Y/N's pov~

1th of December

Ugh I am shaking. Today I am gonna come out to my family. My big sister came out last year and they said they still love her. But I am still so fucking scared. I don't know how to I say them that I am bisexual. My sister just did it. How can she be so brave? I should go to sleep it's like 4am but my stomach hurts from all the stress and anxiety. I can feel the anxiety inside me like a soul that is trapped to a dead body and tries to get out. Maybe I should text my crush. But maybe not she is probably sleeping. I need my sister calming voice. Good thing having a famous big sister is that if you ever need to hear her voice to calm you down just go tiktok and search Billie Eilish comforting videos. And boom then you found them. I put one on. I am so fucking scared. I hug one of my pillows and try to sleep.

Eventually I got some sleep. Ugh I am fucking scareeedd. Today I need to tell I can't just say myself today I am gonna do it and then I just put it to another day. Today is Friday so is family dinner time. The clock is like 9am. Oh I hate mornings.

I lay in bed couple more minutes trying to get some sleep, but no hope. So let's start the day with about 5 hours sleep.

I get up and look around my room. I am so sweaty and I stink. I really need a shower. I take my towel and head to the bathroom. I go to the bathroom and take off my clothes. I look that the door is locked. Then I hop in to the shower and turn it on. Ah I love when the warm water hits your body. I have couple scars from when I was low, but I told billie and she helped me through it.

After the shower. I wrap myself to the towel and head back to my room. I go to my room and lock the door so no one is gonna come in while I change. I change into cute baggy jeans and a cute baggy t shirt that I got from billie about a month ago. Then I put on socks and I forgot to put on bra. I hate when I don't wear it. I feel really uncomfortable. I don't care if I wear or don't on the night but at the day time I have to wear it. I put the bra on and back on the t shirt. Then I put on couple bracelets I got from my friends. How they didn't notice one of them color. It's literally the colors of bi flag. Then I put on couple necklaces. I put on my earrings. I have helix and then I have lower earlobe earrings. I have septum and labret on my lower lip that I did on myself cause my mom said no. I got a but on trouble of that but who cares.

I brush my hair and I put on couple sprays of my favorite perfume. I like eilish no 1 so I always wear it. I go to the kitchen. I see mom making me a avocado sandwich. Mhh yummy.

Morning sweetheart. Maggie says.

Morning mom when is billie finneas and Claudia coming? I ask.

At the same time so around 3pm we have the dinner at home by 7pm. Maggie says.

O-okay. I say. Fuck my voice cracked. Now mom is gonna think something is wrong.

Hey honey are you okay? Maggie asks.

Yeah I am fine uhmm I am gonna go to a walk. I say and quickly left the kitchen I hear mom yell something.

But honey don't you wanna breakfast first. Maggie yells.

But I just put on my shoes and walk out of the house. Okay some peace maybe. I hope mom doesn't think I am falling back to the dark place. I don't want her to think that. I am completely fine but I am just so anxious cause today I am gonna come out of them. I walk around the neighborhood. Oh I love being here it's so quiet. Then I see a girl. Oh shit she is pretty asf. She has on a cute top and some cargo pants. She had full lips and beautiful green eyes. Holy shit she is so pretty.

I end up talking to her and getting her number. But our conversation ends up when my mom calls me.

Hey I need to go I've been out for long time without telling where I went my mom is literally thinking I got kidnapped. I say