BILLIE EILISH- My enemy..

Cloe

"What do you..."

Billie. Oh shit.

"I mean that you could ever like a girl. Romanticaly. Not as a friend" She explains. I know exacly what that is but.. i never thought that i can ve possibly one of them

"I don't wanna be weirdo" i cey again in her embrace

"Meddie, you are not a weirdo" she says with soft voice. She grabs my chin and lifts it so i have to look at her "You are normal person, nothing changed"

"Everthing changed! You don't fucking understand" i say devastated

And than i remember every moment i was just pretending that this ia nothing and it for sure was something. I was stalking her, looking at her pictutes, thinking that she is prettier than Troy. Than a boy. Liking her eyes. Staring at her crazy outfits, still loving how they look on her. Thinking that they lips are so soft..

I have a crush on a girl. I have a rush on person that all my friends hate. I have a crush on Billie.

"You are right, I don't understand. But I'm here for you, always. You know... you are still my little sister"

"yeah" i give her faint smile

We are not sisters from blood, Grace and I were adopted as a little kids, when I we were 2 years old. We are the same age, so we always say that we are twins. We used to do everything together but as soon we went to high school, everything changed. She was always quiet one and i was so loud everywere. She liked studying, I hated. We never had the same personalities. As soon i atarted being popular one, she was just behind somewer not willing to get more than 2 friends. But thats okay. We are still sisters.

"Is there... you know... Someone you like? Or you think you like?" She says and lay on her bed. I do the same. She turns on the TV and shows some series.

"I dont know" i shighs deeply "I think... I think I like Billie"

She raises her eyebrows "Billie O'connell? This bitch?"

"ugh, i  knew that you are going to say that..." i am so disapointed on myself at the moment. "And... don't call her bitch"

"Didn't she destroy your homecomming dress someday?" She askss quietly

"Its not my faulttt" i say and fight with myself to not cry again

"i know, i know."

...

Cloe:
You okay?
I'm sorry for today

She texts me hour aftwr i stop having this deep conversation with my sister. I'm sit on my big bed in my room.

Me:
I'm not mad at you dear
I still love you

Cloe:
Yeyy
I thought you are going to be mad at me
I was so mean, I'm sorry

Me:
What bitch you disnt do anything. You litterly just asked me if i wanna go watch you as a cheeleader

Cloe:
But Troy was mean and i didn't say anything

Me:
Thats nothinggg
But it made me realize i dont deserve you 😭😭

Cloe:
Ly

Me:
ly too

Sorry for REALLY short chapter but i feel kinda offf
Also, if someone is reading i hope you are okay💗
Take a deep breath and just breathe💗
it will be okay.
(only 550 words)