BILLIE EILISH- My enemy..

What should i do...

I try not to look at her while driving, but its so hard somehow. After my sister helped me realised that I'm into girls its harder to push those feelings away. like if i don't want to push them away.

Than someone calls Billie. She awsers, thats Hannah

"Where are you bitch? We were going to hang out today at Brad's" She says with her annoying voice

"i changed plans" Billie says and rolls her eyes while driving. She seem annoyied by her too cause hse brak

"Wait what?"

"Yes bitch. i gotta do a project today"

"With this slut?" She laughs

"Stop. Saying that Hannah" she is now mad, i can tell cause she braked hardly on a red light.

"What is wrong with you lately? you litterly were laughing at that hoe week ago and now you defend her. Anywayyy if you change your mind you are not welcome. love you bye" she hung up

I sit in silience not knowing what to say. She... is nicer to me now? Why?

"Sorry for her" Billie speaks up braking the incomfortable silience between us.

"Thank you..?" i dob't know what to say

"No, really. She is so annoying" She rolls her eyes

"But why you took my side even?" i say and look at the window

"Cause i felt sorry for you" she says and that made me little sad, not gonna lie

We drive without saying the word to each other. I don't know what to say, cause i feel like i shouldn't speak right now. Billie play some music, its probably Tyler, The Creator, but I'm not sure cause i don't really listen to him. Billie loves this music cause she sings some lyrics time to time and moves in the seat to music, what is kinda silly but she doesn't seem to care if i think us dumb. She doesn't seem to care about poeple. Thats kinda hot.

But she doesn't like me.

After few minutes we arrive to her house. Billie gets out of the car but befor she do that she says "I did this cause i like you"

She closes the door and i still sit in the car thinking what she just said.

She likes me?

Not it THAT way dumbass

In liking way, friendship way

She opens the passager door of the car, for me. I look at her with suprice on my face. She smirks

Again?

"let me be gentelmen" She says with deep voice, wich i found to be hot for me

I of course blush, but i always wear tons of makeup so hopefuly she doesn't see that.

I go out of the car and she closes it for me. We go straight to her room as her parents and Finneas are not here yet.

She turns on the red light and seat on her bed. I seat next to her.

"gotta start project, right?" she says

"yeah..." i say cause what else could we do..

So many things..
Shut the fuck up Madeline!!

So we start doing the project. We seat on the bed, i use my laptop and she's taking notes in her ipad.

"We need some information from our previous book" i say while looding through the pages.

"It should be on that table" She points at her desk so i walk up to it.

I see two books layign on that table. I dont recognise which one is it cause both are covered with blac cover. i open one and... this isnt our actuall book. Thats her...journal. I close it imidietly, cue i know that is the private thing. I would die if someone open mine.

"Did you find it.." i hear her voice on my shoulder.

I turn around "sorry... i didn't mean to..." i say

"You saw it.." She looks at me. I can't really aay what she's thinking about right now. She can be sad or angry. Or maybe both.

"I didn't read anything i promise. When i saw its a journal i closed it" I let her know really fast

"Thank you" she says and grab chemistry book. We seat back on her bed. She belives me. That i didn't look. Maybe cause i wasn't looking at her differently? Cause if someone would see my... they would never look at me ever again.

"I'm bored of this shit" She says and lay down

I look at her amused "when you wanna finish it than?"

"Lets take a brake and watch The Office" She says and turns on the TV.

I grab all stuff from bed and put it on the table. I feel kinda weird cause i dont know if i should sit back on her bed or stay...

"Come here, baby" She says with soft voice, i think she knows that i feel awkard at the moment. I lay down next to her than after a second she pulls me closer and just continue to watch the show.

~I want this to be really short cause i wanna continue it from different perspective...

Take care of yourself, remember you are enough❤❤~