Surprise

No

Mikeys pov

I wake up to beeping and a bright room,i look around and see luke sitting there asleep,
"L,l,luke" I shutter
He jolts awake
"Mikey your awake" he replies
"What happened" I ask
"You were in a car crash" he replies he looks like he's been crying,
"Where's katie" I ask
"Umm mikey" he stutters, he has tears in his eyes,
"Luke where is she" I yell
"I'm sorry mikey she didn't make it" he replies
she's gone she can't be gone we were happy,
"No" I yell starting to cry
"Im sorry mikey" luke crys
"No she can't be gone she can't be" I break down,
I cry in to the pillow,
I feel luke put his hand on my back,
"It will be ok mikey" he says
"We're here for you mikey" I hear ashton
"I can't do this"i reply pulling the drips out of me
"Mikey calm down" ash replies
"No I can't do this" I yell trying to get up, doctors and nurses rush in and gab a needle in me , everything turns black.....

Cals pov

Seeing him like that hurts, I told ash to take luke home since he hasn't left his side since it happened, I sit down next to his bed and lay my head in my hands,
"Go home cal I don't need you here" I hear mikeys voice
I look up and see him staring blankly at me
"I'm not going anywhere mikey don't push us away" I reply
"I can't do it cal I can't" he replies
"We're gonna get through this mikey one step at a time,she loved you she wouldn't want you to give up" I reply
"The last thing she said was" he starts crying
"It's ok mikey" I reply sitting on his bed next to him
"She said she loved me" he cries
"I know she loved you very much mikey I know it's hard mikey but she would want you to be brave" I reply
"We were starting a family" he cries
"I know" I sigh
Seeing him cry like that is just heartbreaking,he reply loved her,
"Cal I don't want to live, I don't want to be here with out her" he sobs
"No mikey don't say that it will be ok she would want you to go on and live for her" I reply
"I cant" he cries
"I need you too look at this" I reply pulling a piece of paper out of my wallet and handing it to him...

Mikeys pov

Cal handed me a piece of paper that had bucket list written on it,
"Cal why do I have to read this" I sniffle
"Just read it mikey she would want you to read it" he replies
It's Katie's,
I open the paper

My bucket list
Everything I want to do one day,

1.fall madly in love
2.meet 5sos
3.kiss michael clifford
4. Release my own single
5.travel the world
6.hang with the janoskians
7.see all time low live
8.be happy
9.have a fundraiser to donate all money to charity
10. Make a change
11.
12.

The rest is empty,
"Turn it over mikey she up dated it" cal says

I turn it over,

My life has changed so much and it's all because of 4 amazing boys and one I particular, michael Gordon clifford,i have fallen madly in love with him and he's help me achieve so much, I know I was ment to write a new bucket list but truth is I don't need one cause I have all I dreamed if right now,since the day he picked me up at my house I knew he was the one he made me so nervous, he made me believe in myself, I suppose I am writing this I case anything happens to me one day I want you to see this michael,
If I am gone and you are reading this I want you to know I love you and I'll always be with you,
Don't let this stop you I want you to continue without me and live for me,
If you are reading this and I'm gone I'm sorry I can't be there to hold you and kiss your cheek but I want you to know you are stronger than you think you can go on without me ,well not without me cause I'll always be with you somehow,
Your everything a girl could dream of and I love you mikey,

Please keep going for me and the guys,someone needs to keep them out of trouble especially calum,
Please be strong mikey
I love you
-your one and only Katie

Ps:ashton,calum,luke, take care of my man, I love you guys, my family...

I cry,
"I will for you babe I promise" I whisper
"You'll be ok mike" cal sighs
"I will be for her" I reply holding the paper close
"She gave it to me a few weeks ago" he replies
"Did you read it" I ask
"No it was yours to read not mine" he replies
"Read it" I reply handing him the paper
He reads it
"Still calling me trouble" cal laughs
"I'm going to live for her"i reply
"That's good mikey,remember we're all here to help you" he replies
I let out a weak smile,
We sit in silence,cal has drifted off to sleep,
"I love you Katie and I love for you,you'll always be with me,it kills me that this happened and I'm sorry,i love you so much baby girl and I'll never stop loving you" I whisper

I slowly drift off to sleep knowing I have to go on for her and she'll always be my Katie clifford.......