DeadLock...(Area 11,Yogscast and Hatfilms fanfic)

Chapter 29: You.

Hey guys! Bit of mature language in this one :3....

Sparkles* POV:   

We all sat as we waited for the all clear we could see her after her op. I didn't want to cry in front of everyone. So I ran to the bathroom. I found the stall I always go to. Closed the door and cried. Zoe doesn't deserve to have the past she's had. She's a fucking grown woman and when she looks back at her childhood what is she gonna see. Fucking all the pain and suffering she shouldn't of gone through. I hate my mini flash backs I have. She will have to probably deal with all that shit too. I love Zoe and I know that but I don't think she knows. I would give anything to see her dark chestnut eyes and to hear her angelic voice. She needs to know that she's beautiful, intelligent, Talented and amazing. But she doesn't believe us. I feel like I'm to blame. I didn't talk to her enough. I believed her all those times she said she was fine. I cried more and more into my jumper. The tears didn't stop. I have needed to cry for along time. I sat there my hair a mess and my sleeves soaking wet. I heard someone come in the entrance of the toilets. "Hello?" I heard the voice echo through the toilets. It was Martyn for sure. "Sparks* come out here, I wanna talk to you..." I sniffed and reluctantly came out the stall still crying. "Oh Sparkles*" Martyn said pulling me in for a hug. I cried more and more until I could even talk. "I-I messed U-up!" I said pulling out Martyn's hug and slammed my hands on the sink. "How have you messed up Sparkles*?" Martyn said trying to comfort me by putting his hand on my back. "I-I believed her all t-the t-time she said she w-was f-ff-ine!" I said balling my fists. "Sparkles* nobody knew what she was going to do... No one knew she was going to go that far...." Martyn said frowning. "It's not the point Martyn..." I said trying not to be rude to him. "She needs to know that she's beautiful, talented and more..." I said raising my voice slightly. "Sparks* I know it's hard but I think your not telling us something.. what is it?" Martyn said in fear. "I FUCKING LOVE HER OK! I'M IN LOVE!" I say and fall to the floor crying. "Oh god.." Martyn said crouching down to my level. "Shhh, I can keep this secret. Tell her when your ready." Martyn said giving me a hug. I sighed knowing that Martyn was going to keep my secret a secret. I wiped my eyes and went back out to everyone. "Sparks*! Are you okay?" Leo said running up to me. "Yeah, I'm fine.." I say sitting back down. "I've phoned Sips. He's got the next flight over to come see Zoe." Lewis said sighing. "Guy's, we need to tell you something..." Hannah said standing up with Lewis. "We've broken up..." Lewis said slightly on the edge of crying. We all gasped. They were the most stable couple I knew! I looked at them both with a sympathetic look. "We didn't think it was right to carry on doing this when there's no romantic connection between us any more." Hannah said looking up at us. " But, don't tell Zoe anything. We want to tell her when she's ready. We changed her details for her legal guardian. Trott, we changed it to you. You can change it if you want." Hannah sighed looking at Chris. Everyone said nothing. "I can't do this.." Lewis said running off. Me, Duncan, Sjin, Martyn stand up and follow him. "We need to make sure he doesn't try to do it..." Duncan said as we stopped for breath. "Does what?"  I say now worried about what he's said he will do. "I will tell you later..." Sjin said beginning to run again. We all continue to follow him and try to find Lewis. 

We finally find him sat at the river behind the hospital looking into the water. We all ran up to him. "Oh my god Lewis never do that, we thought you were gonna..." Duncan said pulling him in for a hug. I stud there watching my best friend, my boss crying his eyes out on Duncan. "I-I can't do it anymore D-Duncan." Lewis cried. Sjin came over and sat Lewis down. We all sat around him. "Right, what's going on?!" I say worried for Lewis. Lewis looked at me. "I can't do anything any more, I don't feel important. I feel worthless. I fail at everything, Life, relationships. Everything." Lewis said now able to talk with out crying. I didn't know what to say. Lewis thought he was worthless and he was a failure. "Lewis, what else did you say to me and Duncan?" Sjin said his voice now uneven. "I said I want to quit YouTube.." Lewis said putting his head in his hands. "Lewis, You are amazing. I never once doubted your ideas. You are always lighting up other peoples days and I know that because at Area 11 gigs I've had fans of you come up to take a picture with me and they've said that you have made a massive impact on there lives. You. If you deleted your YouTube channel Duncan, Sjin, Martyn's channels will all go down. Your fans will all be massively upset. For your love life, There's other fish in the sea mate. All of us are always here for a chat." I said trying not to be a soppy idiot. All of a sudden Lewis pounded on my giving me a hug. (I'm sorry I wanted a lot of bromance in this chapter! xS I know I'm a bitch!) I laughed and so did the others. Lewis got up and brushed him self off " Thanks Sparkles*, that's the exact motivation I needed.." He said as we all stood up. "No problem, just speaking the truth.." I said smiling. We all began to walk over to the hospital in silence. I don't like  silence. I looked at the ambulances being loaded with more medical kit or pulling out people from the back. I sighed and walked back in the hell hole full of sadness and medicine. We walked over to where everyone was sat around awaiting some sort of news. I sat down and said hey to some people. Trott was a mess. His hair was messy from running his hands through it. His shirt was covered in tear stains. His eyes were tinted with a vibrant red and his cheeks were flushed. To be honest all of us here looked like we had all been dragged through a hedge backwards. 

It was almost 3:00 am an we had all been told we can stay. The receptionist was surprised at the amount of us that had tuned up. Trott simply replied with "We are all one messed up family, but I wouldn't want it any other way.". I couldn't of put it better my self really. We all sat round, are eyes drooping. Suddenly a doctor walked in and we all sat up and some stood. "You can all see Miss Trott now. She's asleep but we think she would like loved ones around when she wakes up." The  doctor said giving a sympathetic smile. We all gathered are stuff. I put my hand on Trott's shoulder. I gave him a small smile and he gave one back and we walked in... dreading what we will see next.

Hello! Um sorry for the slow updates. Been a bit depressed lately :( Anyway enough of that! I will hopefully have the next one up soon! There's gonna be a plot twist >:-) You're gonna hate me xS Okay guys, please tell me what you thought about this chapter in the comments and I will see you in a little bit! Bub Bye! :3=