My Lill Vixen(Part 1 Of D Angelo's Series)

71.Agony

AUTHOR'S POV

~Conversation between Dante and Nonna~

He takes a deep breath, trying to put his feelings into words.
“Nonna, I’m…I’m conflicted. About a woman. She’s beautiful, intelligent…but she’s also stubborn, difficult. She drives me insane. I’m attracted to her, I can’t deny that, but…there are so many things about her that just…frustrate me, you know?”
" Amara's daughter?...Sathya right?"
He nods undoing his coat and places it on the chair ." I flinged .....I confessed too but I'm glad that she didn't say it back to me "
His nonna listens patiently, her eyes on him as he speaks. She can tell this is something that’s been weighing on his mind.

“And how do you feel about this woman, Dante?” she asks gently.
He looks down at his hands, his expression conflicted.
“The thing is, Nonna...I think…I think I'm falling for her. But she's so...so infuriating sometimes. She drives me crazy, she pushes all my buttons...And Me?? ...I seriously do inspire her inner serial killer everysingle time you know . But she's also…she's amazing, you know? She's smart and strong, and she looks at me like…like she sees something in me that nobody else does…it's infuriating and intoxicating at the same time, Nonna...I don't know what to do."

He sighs, a mixture of frustration and resignation on his face.
"I can't stop thinking about her, Nonna. She's always on my mind, driving me mad with desire. I want her so badly it hurts. And yet at the same time…she makes me so angry, I could just…"

He clenches his fists, his jaw tightening.
"But then I look into her eyes, and I see this…this softness, this vulnerability. And I just…I don't know, Nonna. I don't know what to do. I want to possess her, to own her completely, but at the same time…I want to protect her, to keep her safe from everything and everyone. It's a constant conflict."
" And let me guess .Our mafia is stopping you to make her yours totally right?..I really your mother in you,bambino"
He nods, a solemn look on his face.

"Yes…that’s part of it. My world…it’s dangerous, Nonna. I don’t want her to be a part of that. I don’t want her to suffer because of me. She deserves better than that."
But he looks conflicted, a part of him yearning for the very thing he’s trying to deny himself.
"But at the same time…when I look at her, when I hear her laugh…there's this…this aching in my chest, this need to be near her, to hold her, to protect her. It's like a physical ache I can't get rid of, no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do."
He shakes his head, frustrated.

"But I can't have her, Nonna. It's too dangerous. And she's too good for me, too pure…I'll only drag her down into the darkness with me..And If I let her be in my life ,there's will always be a threat on her back forever.She's a doctor..and she love shee profession..she saves lives unlike me .And I lost the number of kills long back "
She sighs holding his hands ."But how…how do I make this feeling go away, Nonna? How do I stop wanting her, stop thinking about her? Because the more I try to resist, the stronger the desire becomes."
He looks at his nonna, his expression torn.

"I'm so conflicted, Nonna…I want to do the right thing, but my heart…my heart won't let her go…but at the same time I can't choose my happiness over her safety .I love her ,it's because I love her I can't be selfish with her ."
" Is this what about Aria said the other day?"
That day when Aria broke down into tears infront of everybody she yelled in italian at Dante saying that there's no happy ending in this mafia life .She said that no matter who they are they will meet the same fate of they step into this life ..just the darkness.
His expression darkens even more, a furious look on his face.

"My sister…that attack was a wake-up call, Nonna. It showed me just how dangerous my world is, how much of a target I am…and by extension, anyone who associates with me. I can’t risk putting *her* in danger. I can’t risk causing her harm…I’d rather suffer the pain of longing than watch her suffer because of me…no matter how much her absence hurts…"