A pure Soul

21.

If I don't join them now, they'll probably force me to join them anyways in an hour, they don't seem to value alone time very much...

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POV. Jimin

"Wait Namjoon-hyung, I will join you!" I call after him and run to his side. He turns to face me, his face adorned with a smile, "That's wonderful Jiminie, what made you change mind?" "To be fair hyung, I am quite certain that even if I stayed here, I would have ended up sitting next to you all in less than half an hour.", I say jokingly, perhaps it was their calmer demeanor, but I felt more comfortable with Namjoon and Jin than with the rest of them. They were a bit too energetic and touchy, except for Yoongi, who was the complete opposite and felt just way too cold. Namjoon laughed at my unexpected open answer "I wish I could deny it, but I am pretty sure that you're right about that."

I followed Namjoon, the walk towards the living room was quiet but yet still not awkward, it was more of a comforting silence, which I gladly welcomed. The last days were wild, I was in a constant change between overwhelming social contact and imprisonment in my world of thoughts, it felt somehow reassuring to be able to acknowledge my thoughts but at the same time not facing them alone. Even though Namjoon wasn't even aware of my thoughts and the fact that I was often captured in my own subconsciousness by the raging thoughts inside my head, which lead to me wander around without being in actual control of both my legs and mind, it gave me a feeling of safety to have someone in the same room as me, who could free me from my subconciousness my so called prison.

"We're nearly there!", Namjoon's voice awoken me and my eyes quickly meet his, I only nod at his statement. "I am happy, you decided to join us, but you are allowed to go back to your room no matter when! I can see that you are sometimes really overwhelmed by all the attention we give you and I understand that.", he gave me a cheerful smile. I am pretty certain, that he recognized my mind wandering off so he decided to give me reassurment, for which I was actually really thankful. "Thank you hyung-nim."

"I am going to crush you!" "Not even a chance, Idiot!", loud shouts were coming from our designated destination and I looked towards Namjoon in shook, to my surprise he didn't have any shooked or scared expression on his face at all. I thought that it was weird and started to wonder if I had just misheard, when another voice appearded. "Stop it, both of you! Or I'll have no chance but to interfere!", as we come closer towards the living room, I figured out that the scolding must have been by Jin. "What will you do?" "Yeah right, there is nothing you can do about it hyung!", the two other voices echoed once again through the house. "Yah! That's it!", Jin's voice beacame even louder, while his tone of voice clearly depictured his annoyence with the others. Hell broke loose once again as shouting and scolding filled the whole mansion, I didn't know what was happening and it terrified me to say the least. 

"Hyung? Is everything alright?", I softly tugged at the olders shirt, which caused him to stop and turned towards me. "Yeah everything is alright. Why do you ask?", he looked at me with concern in his eyes. I looked back at him irritated "Don't you hear the shouting?", I ask carefully 'was it just in my head? Why does he seem so unbothered?' "Oh, that's what's worrying you?", he chuckled at my question and explained further, "That's just Tae and JK playing video games, they can become really invested!" "Oh, okay.", I replied quickly to Namjoon, I wanted to quickly drop this topic because I felt on one hand embarressed to misunderstanding the situation and on the other hand I was completely oblivious to all kinds of video games, it should be pretty obvious but my father has never bought me toys, especially not something as expensive as video games! I would really love to avoid a conversation about something I have no idea about. Namjoon started to move again and I trailed after him.