More than all the stars in the sky - An Addicted Prequel

Pacing it

"Your Mom is really sweet." I tell Virat as he was coming back to drop me off at my apartment. 

"Is that why you decided to go back to your apartment?" Virat asks dropping a hint of sarcasm.

"It is weird Virat. Understand."

"Weird, how?" he asks.

"I don't know. We both come from traditional families. I know I would not want my Dad to know we are living together."

I look at Virat and he has a grim face. He doesn't say anything but I know he is upset. "Mom already knows, what are you trying to hide?" he asks. 

"Jaan..." I plead. I know he had a point but I just don't feel right about it.

"Okay." he smiles after a bit, looking at me. "I want you to be comfortable in your decisions."

"I will see you tomorrow then." he pulls over in front of my apartment.

"Come in for a cup of coffee?" I ask sweetly.

"You don't really mean that." he smiles turning towards me.

"Of course I do. Come on."

"Cup of coffee at this hour means a night cap in the dating world, baby." he chuckles.

God, I am so ignorant sometimes. I ignore his amusement and try to keep a straight face.

"Do you still want me in?" he asks, raising his brows.

"You know I mean coffee when I say coffee Virat. I am pretty light on the dating jargon. You don't have to laugh at me." 

"Oh, you don't know how glad I am that you are light on dating jargon or just dating for that matter, Manvi. The thought of you being with someone else...." he looks at me with a horrified face.

"But, I shouldn't have a problem with you living with your ex?" I all but pout. I could not keep my feelings to myself about Tanya. 

"Are we jealous of Tanya, babe?" he puts his hand around my shoulders laughing as we walk inside.

I look up at him angrily. Why is it amusing? 

He laughs some more. "I was never serious about Tanya, Manvi. She is too much like me." he finally tells me. 

"What does that mean? Isn't that a good thing? You both have so much in common. You work on the same things. You are studying in the same classes. And she is so pretty and confident." I ask.

"Woah!" he looks at me surprised. "Where is this coming from, Manvi? Did I give you even a tiny reason to doubt?"

"I am not doubting, Virat." We reach my apartment and I open the door as he looks at me curiously. I look down at my feet. "I sometimes just don't understand what you see in me." I tell him with a small voice.

"Are you serious here?" he looks shocked, following me in. He looks at me like I am an idiot.

"I don't mean to be insecure. I...I..just..." I stammer.

He keeps looking at me for an answer, folding his hands, as if angry.

I am standing in the center of the room and my head gives me the words but I feel so small and petty to say them. I look down and walk inside into my room, into the balcony. That always makes me feel better. He follows me quietly yet curiously. 

He comes and stands by my side looking at the view, taking in the cool breeze. I look out into the open and finally get the words out. "...I am getting too attached to you Virat. Like too soon. Too fast. It is so scary when I think about it. What if all this is a phase...you know..that one day you will realize I am wrong for you. That I am not ambitious like you. That I don't want the same things that you do or that I am not as smart or not an extraordinaire beauty like the girls you have dated before."

He looks at me wit an absolute blank face and then just smiles and looks up into the sky. "Oh Manvi, Manvi, Manvi..." he shakes his head.

"Don't mock me Virat. It was hard for me to say those things."

"I am not mocking you baby..." he turns to me and takes both my hands and puts them on his shoulders. He smiles looking into my eyes. "... and I appreciate your honesty. I am just a little surprised..."

"Why?"

"Coz of how little you think of yourself. And how big you think of me."

"But, its true..."

"No. It's not." he dismisses it. "That is just the way you see me, the way you see us."

"How do you see us?" I ask curiously.

He laughs. "Let's just say I am waiting for the day you see how shallow and selfish I am and you dump my ass."

"Riiiiiight!" I roll my eyes.

"...but now I know that day will never come."

"You do?"

"Ahaa..."

"And why is that?"

"Because you are utterly incapable of seeing anything bad...especially when it comes to me."

"Viraaaaat?" I smile, looking away as he puts his hands around my waist and brings me closer.

"You are an angel baby. My beautiful angel. I don't know how I ended up with you but you can be sure of one thing..."

"What?" I look up at him eagerly.

"You are not going to get rid of me anytime soon...I know a diamond, when I see one."

"You really mean it?"

"You can bet your life on it." he smiles.

"Let's not move in yet. I want to be able to tell my Dad, first." I tell him.

He laughs. "Planning to get me killed Manvi?" 

"No. I just...I am going home soon. Just till then."

"When are you going?"

"Dad is selling our house. My mom had it on my name so he needs my signature. I am planning to go in a few days."

"Okay."

"Let me get you that coffee." I tell him.

He holds my elbow and stops me. "Manvi..No..I will get going?"

"So soon?"

"Have an early morning and I didn't get much sleep last night." he smiles.

"Okay."

"This is where you ask me to stay for five more minutes, girlfriend!" he furrows his brows.

I laugh. "Stay for five more minutes Jaan..." I ask sweetly.

"Kyu? Kya irada hai?" he asks smiling as his fingers gently trace the bare waist under my sari and I look at him breathlessly. 

"How can anyone look so sexy, Manvi?" he asks as his eyes slowly change colors from naughty to unbridled desire, as he was tracing his fingers over my shoulder, through my neck, over the dips and shallows of my skin as I shudder screwing my eyes shut.

"Viraaaat...please." I moan as he rubs his lips over mine. It was destroying every type of sense I had in me. Oh, he is just undeniable. 

"Stop me, Manvi." he says in a hoarse voice his lips gently descend down my chin into the crook of my neck. I was almost drowning in this wild ripple of sensations but I hold on to the little voice that reminds me that his mom and brother were still at his place. I distance him by placing my hand on his chest. He opens his eyes as I was looking at him sparkly eyed. He curses the time and takes a step back.

"I must be given an award for self-control." he makes a face. He hooks his finger to my chin and pecks me gently. "If you don't see how I see you even now, you must be blind?" he chuckles. "Good night now." he smiles and walks out of the house.

"Message me after you  get home." I tell him at the main door as he blows me a kiss.