HiroXTadashi

Dimensional Feelings

As the door creaked open, I previewed the room of Hiro. I was in a restricted area zone. I couldn't believe this.

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Was I invading Hiro's personal space? I was, obviously. Is this such a good idea??? What am I doing ?? Should I be doing this? I'm not so sure anymore.

I looked around even more. Cozy little room, with lots of books and clothes scattered around, and even with a small chemistry set on his desk. Hiro sure loves to play around with dangerous stuff. I hope he knows what he's doing.

I placed my water bottle down on the bedside desk and sat on Hiro's messy bed. 'He should clean up sometime...' I said to myself. Viewing clothes and books on the ground.

Then I got an idea. Smiling loudly, J bolted up with a sudden joy and cheer. A very pleasant idea. I should clean Hiro's room!

Yeah, he'll enjoy having a room in pristine condition. He can study and Maybe this experience will bring us closer together. That would be just..
Terrific.

But Hiro would be home soon, so it would he nice to surprise him like this. I'd better hurry.

I started by picking up his books and placing them in the half empty book shelf. I left some books which had bookmarks on them. I placed a couple of books on Hiro's bedside desk. In alphabetical order, the books were in better condition. Lined up, and much straighter than me.

With my hands on my hips, I proudly looked around the room, pride growing in my chest. 'Now that that's done, I'm halfway there !' I said to myself beaming with glee.

Now with that done, I decided to clean the rest. Picking up clothes, it soon became a small mountain on my chest. Abruptly, I came upon a problem. I picked up one of Hiro's favorite shirts.
'hmm.?? Isn't this Hiro's favorite shirt? Is it dirty?' I thought to myself. I started moving his shirt closer to see if it smelled so I could wash it. With no warning, his sweet aroma hit my nose, breathing his scent into me.

I felt a sharp pain all of a sudden on my chest. My heart pumped faster, and my mind thought of something risky.

Smell. His. Shirt. More.

Wide eyes, I broke out in a sudden stage. Oh no. It's happening again. Not now. Why now? My hands were shaking. Why now? Hiro could be coming home anytime soon.

I could feel my penis erecting. Why now? I didn't want Hiro to see me doing this. That's wrong.

Although, he wouldn't be home for another 2 hours.

Let's just get rid of this once and for all. I'm doing this for Hiro. Not me, for him. I don't want to harm him, because I love him.

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'Okay Tadashi, you can do this' I thought to myself while crawling on Hiro's bed, and cautiously laid down.

I settled down on the comfy mattress and let it sink down. I sighed loudly as my emotions settled down. I stared up at the ceiling, staring off into space for a moment.

My eyes began to tear a little. I quickly settled up with my eye sight blurry. I'm falling in love here, but do I even have to guts to say it to him?? Would he even feel the same? If I ever told him, I don't think our relationship would ever be the same. What I was doing was something extremely risky.

I wanted a relationship with Hiro, something that was healthy and happy for the both of us. I want him to experience something that he never experienced before. Someone, maybe like me, to be there to help him succeed in life, to have a laugh with at happy times, to smile warmly with, to listen to his troubles and how his day went. I want, or someone to always make him feel safe, like home. To feel human warmth with, his hand on with mine. Was what I am doing alright? What am I thinking here?? I mean, we all make mistakes. That's normal... Right?? Does he want to risk falling in love with me? That's my only question. I don't want to force Hiro, that's just cruel. I don't just want him for my sexual pleasures, I want to love him emtionally, with my these feelings I've been carrying for him. I love him for who he is. I do.

Boy, only if he'd ever fall in love with me. Hiro probably someone else in his view. I cannot force him to love me like that, so his choice is his. If he loves someone else, then be it.

I just want him to be happy, once he is, maybe these unreasonable feelings will wear off.

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As long as he's happy. As long as you happy Hiro, then I am.

Make your choice Hiro. I accept it. I do, really.. because.. I love you. I really do. Please don't forget that.

I really do.