Last One Standing

I'm So Sorry

Iliana's Pov:

I see Nash walking over here with sleeping Whitney in his arms, and he then sets her down, and comes in my direction, noticing I'm awake.
"You think you can be on the lookout now? I'm really tired?" He asks me.
I say sure and walk down the beach a little bit.
I then notice the "kitchen" area and see some dinner rolls.
I mean, everyone is sleeping, they'll never know.
I tip-toe over and grab the bag.
I sit down on the blanket and bite into a roll and it tasted so good.
I take another bite, then another, and another. Then I grab another. I am so hungry.
The next thing I know, there is one roll left. Shit.
"Hey! What are you doing?!" I hear a whisper yell towards me.
It's Shawn.
I am speechless, cause I already know how he feels about me, and how we need to save the food.
I just break down and start to cry.
"I'm so sorry," I bawl.
"I don't know what's wrong with me. I couldn't help myself." I cry so hard.
"We are suppose to save the food! Why do you eat so much anyways! You ate the most during dinner, yet that wasn't enough! What the hell!" He quietly argues with me.
"Shawn. I have an eating disorder. Last year I barley ate at all. In the hospital for awhile. There is something wrong with my stomach where I get so hungry or I'm not hungry at all. And when I get hungry, I need to eat, or I won't eat for weeks. I'm so sorry. This is the second thing I've eaten in six days!" I cry so hard I can't even see anything.
"Iliana. I'm, I'm so sorry. I had no idea. I shouldn't of been hard on you. It wasn't any of my business." He sits beside me.
"I'm so sorry," I repeat.
He then pulls my head into his chest but I can't stop crying.
"You hate me. You don't need to do this." I push away.
"I don't hate you." He says.
And then he kisses me. Out of no where. I was not expecting that.
I thought I hated him.
I thought he hated me.
But I felt electricity.
Something I've never felt before.
And the kissing didn't stop.
He kept going.
I kept going.
Him and I stayed up the rest of the night together talking about our lives.
He went from my least favorite person to the only person I want to talk to.
And it was an amazing feeling.