'It's alright, you'll be okay. Life may be hard but trust me we all love and miss you, okay darling. Good things come to those who believe, better things to those who are patient and the best things come to those who don't give up. You're perfect and deserve happiness okay honey, I love you dearly and know you did nothing wrong, you didn't deserve that and you deserved so much better. When you're at the end of your rope, tie a knot, and hang on tight, you never know how strong you are until being strong is your only choice. Okay so don't worry Hun you'll make it through I promise. I love you, Kaneki' I sighed and placed down my pen, I felt my cheeks... I've been crying for two hours straight, it's become a natural occurrence.
That's the last one for tonight, I was sent home early from me falling unconscious at school due to lack of sleep, hydration and food, every night I wouldn't sleep, I've been watching so many season finales recently that I've fallen ill and depressed with... The feels.
Every otaku suffers from these feels but this is an actual serious problem, I literally have piles of sheets: notes, messages and cards too characters who did nothing wrong or died, illustrations and fanart both happy and sad, revival theory's, happiness theories, re-written plots to give characters good lives, fanfics, head canons, wasted paper with random words scrawled on, next to a small cup filled with broken, inkless pens, piles of mangas, some more blank paper, laptop, headphones, phone all cramped yet sprawled over my bedroom desk and beside that a bin full of tissues drenched in my tears.
I have actual depression, I haven't slept properly and my eye bags are dropping, I have only eaten small things and pen lids for the week, I've had no social interaction. I'm so broken from the whole anime problems that I've left humanity behind.
I heard a gentle tap on the door, it was my mom. I opened the door hesitantly and there stood Yuki next to her.
"MISAKI! WHERE THE HELL YOU BEEN?!" Yuki shouted as she saw me, I weakly closed and locked the door on them and crawled back into my bed, crushing my Happy plushie in my arms till I felt a sudden cold breeze, Yuki broke in through the window. She sat across from me as I caressed happy whilst draped in blankets, she stared blankly into my eyes in silence, possibly devising some plan. Then she began to speak.
"Darts, human sacrifice, games, what should we do?"
"Contemplate life..." I mumbled.
"Okay what's wrong?" She looked disappointed.
"Why did they die?
They did nothing wrong...
Why aren't they canon?" I blankly stared at happy with a dead expression and no emotion.
"Alright, maybe some fanfic and amv's... Maybe a dose of Jacksepticeye too... What ship?" She asked, grabbing a tablet and laptop, setting Wattpad and YouTube up.
"NaLu..." I slowly cried quietly.
"Mmhhhmmmmm I get'chya" she nodded, she got a NaLu AMV (video at start of chapter) up, one called "Stay" then another YouTube tab with Jacksepticeye Goat Simulator #8 up ready for after the AMV. She then turned the tablet on, put on Wattpad, went into a reading list named, "NaLu overdose", this had the best NaLu fanfics that could literally heal my broken heart every time Hiro was a Troll-Mashima. I poked my head more out the blanket and smiled as the singing began to play.
"Push you so hard you wanna pull away, hug you so tight I'll make your body ache~" I quietly sung, rhythmically clasping my hands together repeatedly, loosening my tense body.
When the song finished and the credits rolled in, I giggled and buttered and jumped with joy and fangirling from how canon my babies were. Yuki quickly closed that tab before I got lost in an endless cal of AMVs till I reached the sad emotional ones, Jacksepticeyes video began playing with the loud roar of his voice.
"TOP OF THE MORNIN TO YEY LADIES! HIGH FIVES!" I imitated his actions in the intro and laughed on end at the stupidity of the game. I was crying tears. Yuki really knows how to pull me from the depths of pain and suffering, well known also as 'feels'. She crept out my room through the door, she went down stairs got a pot of Ben and Jerrys Cookie Dough ice cream, enough for two so we could share, after eating the ice cream she almost turned off the laptop till I pushed it out of her reach; in a panic.
"Hey what are you doing?!" She pouted.
"Watching more jacksepticeye, fanfic will only upset me more because it's either sad or so happy that it upsets me it's not real or its your lie in April all over again." I answered in a quick manner, recalling a fanfic I finished reading, it was called 'Catch me before it's too late (NaLu Light Lemon)' by @Otaku_lucky_star .
(THANKS FOR EMOTIONALLY DESTROYING ME BTW ILY2 😭)
She sighed and agreed, and put on a long "movie" length trilogy playlist, 'Life is Strange', this will be my fourth time watching it, Yuki's first (she loves jacksepticeye too), I can't wait to show her how adorable Chloe and Max are! Awwwww! They should kiss...
Although the most recent cliffhangers so upsetting ;-;
This is how I'm wasting the next 7 hours!
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Thanks for reading, remember she is based off me so @Otaku_lucky_star I'm not lying when I say you emotionally broke me and I cried for over 1 hour straight about that damn fanfic... I came here for a good time, but I honestly feel so attacked right now.
Anyway leave a vote, share, comment and add it to your list, any requests in this story or suggestions for chapters or new characters just comment xx
Also the videos mentioned:
Goat simulator #8 -
http://youtu.be/YabrXxaz6Z4
Life is Strange (#1) -
http://youtu.be/K8JPS7xDGFU
NaLu Stay by Brenda Hikaru -
http://youtu.be/45jOm9XNad4
Sadly couldn't get AMV working but please go watch it it's amazing and I love her videos xxx
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The girl who avoided being the main character (Anime)
FanfictionThis is a story about a normal girl that no one really cares about. Misaki Imozaki. She is born and panic fills her parents, she has blue hair and violet eyes... "She's a main character!" Throughout the story she avoids the first episodes of many an...
