Weeping Beeswax

Nezumi

Mammals

Rats are mammals, with mammary glands, warm blood, and soft fur.  Hmm, if I remember correctly, the earliest Mammals were shrew-like creatures, rats didn’t take too long to evolve from that.  Being rodents.  Believe it or not, primates evolved from rodents, or at least I think they do, AM may have made that up.  Anyway, first were the tree shrews, then these little monkeys, then apes, hominids, humans, now there's me.  I’m neither a primate nor a rodent.  I'm not even a mammal anymore, I no longer fit the criteria. I don’t know what I'm classified as.  I think I’m still an animal, but more like a jellyfish than anything, I may be similar to a slug but I am not one at all.  Slugs are more complex than I.   I’m just goo with a brain.  Maybe closer in likeness to a slime mold.  Just an extra smart one.  

No, I am my own thing entirely, nothing else is like me.  Not in the whole world, not in history.  Just a great soft jelly thing.  Maybe I can come up with a species name?  Let's see… maybe… Gelatono Sapien?   Sure, that will do for now.

Hmm, I think this trip has stimulated me, not that way, get your head out of the gutter.  My thoughts are much clearer than they were before.  This is good for me, or at least better than lazing around in a rusty cage all day.  It's nice to travel for something that isn't your own starving stomach.  I was starting to forget practically everything.  But all these old memories are rushing back.  I'm a bit ashamed to say this, but it's all very nostalgic.  Slithering through these old roads.  I haven’t had the chance to travel in a long time.  Well actually I did, but I was scared.  I'm still scared to be completely honest, I'm not as strong as I used to be.  The encounter with the bird was a close call, I could've gotten stuck forever!  Glad it didn't have a stomach.  

Though imagine if the boulders in there were actual eggs that hatched!  Oh, wouldn’t that be so cute!! Baby birds. I remember I was never a fan of cute things as a human, but now I'd do anything to see something cute.  I hope the rats let me near.  Gosh, when was the last time I saw a puppy?  Sometimes AM would make wolves to maul us.  But that's not really cute.  

Oh!! I hear it!  Squeaking!  I'm getting close!  Aww, imagine how cute and fluffy they'll be!!!!! Oh, I haven’t been this excited in… AM knows how long!  

I SEE SOME IN THE DISTANCE!! They’re scurrying around doing rat things!!!!  They’re adorable!!!  I think I used to have, um… A pet.  I don’t remember…

I forgot them, I forgot my pet, how could I forget?  I remember how painful it was to lose them, that's all AM lets me remember, the pain…  

Sometimes I wonder if I lived a good happy life before AM, but he got rid of any memories that comforted me.  Probably…  What was my pet's name?  

I guess I’ll never know, that's such a shame, but everything is a shame.  Everything except!  Look at it!  It looking at me!  A rat!

It’s half the size of me, it’s drowned in warts, I can’t make out its face.  But aww!  Look at its little eyes!  So shiny and innocent!  It even has a little bit of fur, I need to pet it-

“IF YOU FUCKING TOUCH ME I SWARE TO GOD I’LL BITR YOUR FACE OFF!”  it threatens, its little tufts of fur on end.  The commotion sparks a crowd of rats, all massive and deformed.

“What IS that thing?” “It REEKS!”  “It’s disgusting!” Their little murmurs flood the air, as putrid as sulfur.

“It tried to touch me!  I never allowed that!  I never said it could!”

Wait sorry I just wanted to-

“It tried to TOUCH you?!  That thing is dangerous!   Get that- that MONSTER out of here!  Cover the children's eyes!  Kick it out, burn it!  Do anything!  Just make it leave!”  came a voice.   I turned my head to see something quiet eldrich in nature, a rat king.  20 rats, tails all tangled together, rotting.  Skulls are shiny with their rotting fluids.  The owner of the voice, the king of rats, was like that of a demon’s, many demons.