Clarke:
"Clarke? Clarke!" I snap out of my daydream of me and Finn and the butterfly's.
"Um... Yeah?" I say shaking my head as if to clear my thoughts.
"What are we going to do?" Bellamy asks looking me in the eye.
"I guess we need to find out who did this." I sigh not wanting to do anything.
"They think Raven did it. She couldn't have. Could she?" He asks looking at her.
"Let's find out." I say not wanting to play games.
"Raven I need to know if you poisoned Lexa?"
"You think I did this!" She explodes.
"Raven I just need to be sure." I say through the exhaustion.
She stands up and gets in my face. Looking me straight in the eye. I can see the anger boiling up in her face.
Before I can process what's happening I feel a sharp pain across my face that quickly turns to a large numbing. I hold my face and turn my head to look back at her. Shocked. She's still not done.
"Your the only murderer hear!" She spits in my face. That's when I see him. Finn.
I look behind her to see him shaking his head in pity. I let out a small scream. And point to the figure.
I look around to see confused or sad faces. But the only one that's scared is Bellamy's. He looks terrified yet sad all at the same time. He's looking at me like I'm broken. I hate it. I turn back to Finn.
"Leave me alone!" I scream at him.
"Clarke what's wrong? Are you okay?" I hear Bellamy's sad gravely voice from behind me. But it doesn't matter he already knows the answer.
I'm not.
In a flash Finn is in my face. The suddenness of it all knocks me back to the ground.
"Please just leave me! I'm so sorry!" I sob as he approaches me.
"You killed me." He says. "You couldn't save me.
"I'm so sorry. I wanted to.... I tried....Just leave, me, alone!" I scream.
"What about me?" Wells spears from nowhere. "Did you even try to save me?"
"I couldn't." I sob.
"Or me?" Says Anya.
"Or me?" Says Charlotte.
"I tried! So hard you have to believe me! I suffer everyday because of my failure to protect you!"
"It's not enough!" They shout disappearing then reappearing closer.
I crawl backwards as far as I can go until I reach a wall. I sit against it sobbing.
"I can fix it!" I shout pulling my gun out of my belt.
"Do it!" They shout.
"Clarke!" Bellamy yells appearing in the room.
"Oh Bell. No please god no!"
"Clarke? It's okay it's me. Your safe. Just put the gun down." Bellamy says slowly.
The others disappear and I'm back in the room with Bellamy Octavia Lincoln Raven my mother and Kane. They all look terrified even Raven.
I look at the gun in my hand. It looks so sinister yet it feels so peaceful in my hand. Finn reappears suddenly and starts to help raise the gun to my head.
"Please stop." I whine to Finn.
"Clarke you can stop." Bell says softly.
The gun is raised to my head now and the cold metal soothes my pounding head. I wander what it would be like to have complete peace?
"All you have to do is pull the trigger." Finn whispers in my ear.
"I have to do this don't I?" I turn my head from a crying Bellamy to the ghost of Finn.
"Clarke you don't have to do anything. Please put the gun down." Bell pleads with tears in his eyes. I look back to Finn.
"I don't want to do this." I cry.
He just nods his head for me to continue.
"I'm sorry bell." I say putting finger on the trigger.
"Wait! Please wait!" Bell screams.
"Why? It's over Bell. I'm done. I have nothing left." I say putting a halt on my trigger finger.
"You have me!" He cries.
I just shake my head through the tears.
"No. No I need someone to love. I lost that privilege. I have no one." I spit pushing the gun closer to my head.
"Clarke I love you! And you can love me you don't have to do this."
"I don't deserve love. I wouldn't be able to save you" One more tear slips out.
"If anything I don't deserve you. I love you so much. Please Clarke I'm begging you put the gun down."
I look to Finn to find he's gone. I drop the gun and instantly feel strong arms wrap around me. I melt into them and let them pick me off the ground.
"It's okay." He whispers as I melt into the safety of his arms. "You don't have to do anything."
