Vic's POV
I woke up with swollen eyes and no intentions of actually getting up today. I didn't have it in me. I didn't want to go anywhere, or see anyone, I wanted to simply disappear.
I heard a soft knock on the door. "Vic .. I Uhm i need a ride." Mike said from behind the door.
I didn't want to talk but I forced out the sentence. "I'm not going to work, the keys are on the table, bye." I said bluntly. I didn't even care that he might crash my car, I didn't care about anything. I just wanted to be left alone.
"Okay but I'm going out with Tony, gabe and Jesse so I'm gonna be back later than usual." He said to me . when I didn't answer he eventually walked away.
This wasn't something I could easily get over, and honestly I didn't want to because this feeling of heartbreak and depression was the only thing I had left that was a connection to Kellin. Kells. My kells. But he wasn't mine anymore, he never was.
It sucks how I actually believed he was different, I believed that he loved me and even when I knew he was lying yesterday I still believed him. I hated myself for falling into his game and right now he was already planning his wedding with that tramp.
Good to know his life is going great while mine was absolute shit.
my mother is dying, I have to spend the rest of my life trying to support a family without any chance of doing what I love, and I lost someone I'm in love with who doesn't care. Remembering all that makes me want to cry again but I'm all cried out because not only did I lose the love of my life, I lost the little amount of life I had.
I heard my alarm clock go off and I tossed it off the drawer. At least it shut up. I was so aggressive but weak at the same time.
Did I really mean nothing to him? Was I really just used for sex and a bit of the boyfriend experience? Why didn't he love me back? I loved him so much. You could combine my love for hime and Andy when we dated and that still wouldn't measure up to how much I loved Kellin.
Love Kellin
I leaned against the wall. I hadn't even fallen asleep on my bed last night. I was too busy crying and breaking down that I passed out from exhaustion on one of my bean bag chairs. It reminded me of Kellin and how when we first started dating he kissed me for the second time in this small room. Everything reminded me of him and he probably didn't thing twice when he was making out with that whore of his. I hated her, even if she wasn't the person Kellin left me for.
I know I should hate Kellin but I couldn't. it pained to know he never felt the same way. He said it, on TV for the whole world to see that he loved her and he couldn't even tell Nick that he loved me.
He said he'd never leave me and he'd be there to help me, I just added that to the list of lies he told me. Now I was alone. I had to provide for my family, deal with my heartbreak, and live my life alone.
I hated this, i hated how my life turned into some stupid movie, I hated the way I felt, I hated everything.
Kellin's POV
"Kellin, you have to come out. Your parents are expecting you to go see a client today." Nick said from behind my locked door. Funny isn't it? They wanted me to "come out" and the fact that I didn't is the reason I lost Vic.
"I'm sick, tell them I can't go." I said. It wasn't a total lie. My head was pounding, my eyes were swollen, I felt sick to my stomach and I was blankly staring at a wall to avoid crying again. I was a bit hung over, I broke into our wine collection downstairs and drank two bottels of lord knows what. It didn't help numb the pain much. This was worse than the time Vic took care of me, and this time he wasn't here to take care of me. He didn't even come to work, and I don't blame him. He's not at fault here. I am.
"Okay. I understand. But I really need you to come down anyway." Nick said and I heard him walk away.
I just wanted to stay on my bed, with a tear soaked pillow near my chest and never talk to another human unless it was Vic. I thought when I broke up with Jack that I wouldn't get better, but two days later I was back on my feet again. Now I was here, a thousand times more broken.
This was all my fault, he wouldn't even hear me out. He thinks I hate him and I used him when that couldn't be further from the truth. I loved him with everything in me.
Love him
I forced myself up and opened the door, my hands were in my pockets and I didn't even look up. I heard a zip and I looked up.
"Nick what are you doing?" I asked he closed the black suit case. He wasn't wearing butler clothes. He was just in a blue button up and dark jeans.
"You are eighteen now Kellin, you are getting married. Your parents are firing me." He said and my heart broke more. Not Nick too.
"No, that can't be right." I said.
"I'm afraid it is." Nick said picking up the suitcase but I grabbed it.
"No Nick! Please don't leave me too. I already lost someone I love, I won't let my parents take away the only true family I have." I said, my voice cracking. He looked at me with sad eyes and dropped the bag before pulling me into a hug. "I'm sorry kellin, it is out of my control." He said.
"No Nick, don't leave me. I... I can't do this. I don't know how." I sobbed into his shirt.
He pulled away and looked me in the eye. "Kellin, it's been eleven great years taking care of you. But now you are eighteen and I'm forty. It's about time we both try to live life for ourselves don't you think?" Nick said.
"But not yet, please not yet." I beg.
"It's not up to me, I have to be gone by tomorrow. But Kellin, please just make the right choices in life. If I've taught you anything as your role model it's life is to short for you to not take what you want." He said. "I trust you'll make the right choices." He said I knew he was talking about Vic and I but there was nothing I could do anymore.
"There is nothing I can do anymore." I shrug hopelessly.
"There's always something you can do Kellin, you are just too scared to do it." He said, he was right.
"What about you? What are you going to do now?" I ask him.
"Probably propose to my girlfriend." He shrugs and I give him a surprised look. "Why do you think I run errands for hours at a time for the past few years," he chuckled.
"Looks like my recklessness has rubbed off on you." I said. I was somewhat happy now but certainly not happy enough to smile. I was happy for another person, not for myself, I hated myself.
"It seems so." He said. "Goodbye kellin, we'll keep in touch."
"Of course, goodbye Nick, I'm going to miss you." I said and he gave me a weak smile before leaving out the door.
When he left I did something without even processing what the consequences were. I called Catherine.
She picked up on the third ring. "Hey Kelly." She said in an overly preppy voice
"Catherine.... I need to tell you something... It's about our parents."
*****
A/n
The heartbreak is killing me. I hope kells does the right thing for once. Or maybe he won't idk. Also this was sorta cheesy and it would have been better but I'm super busy today so I sorta wrote this fast.
Have a nice day.
Xoxoxo
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