Midnight Rain | Jilix |

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A/n Pov.

The time already stopped, moments passing by each breath as Jisung tilted his head, confused with what Felix just said, "No, it was you." The words were deeply engraved in his heart. And, now one thing was sure, whatever Felix will say now, it won't manipulate Jisung and Felix knows it too.

Jisung - You said, we kissed and the next thing you are allowed to say is that you're gonna tell me when!!

But Felix scoffed, remembering the time when he was used to obeying these words and this voice, but now it doesn't effect him anyway. "And why would I?" Felix asked, his gaze going directly into Jisung's soul. "What if I tell you that I want to?" He said, walking closer to Jisung, he wasn't planning to confront on topic but if Jisung already knows now, Felix will let out his frustration and anger on him now. When Jisung already knew half, why not confront him for the whole?

Jisung - It was me, wasn't it? That truth and dare game, it was always me but you chose to hide it..

Felix - So what if I did? You were the one who forgot that night like it was nothing.

Felix said, already standing in front of Jisung, his gaze never leaving Jisung even for a second. He was already prepared for the conflict, whatever Jisung was going to say next, he was ready for everything.

But what Jisung said made him silent for a moment~ "Who told you I forget? I never did but I thoguht that was a dream." Jisung finally spoke, looking into Felix's sad eyes.

Jisung - It was just too good to be true that I thought it was my dream because I was drunk. But you know what? I fucking cherished each second of it.

But what about Him? Why does he need to be considerate, always? Doesn't he deserve being understood? Felix's mind ran with different conflicts. What should he do now? But one thing that was confused, as always, was what Jisung wanted? "Then what did you wanted me to do?" Felix asked in confusion and desperation, making Jisung go silent for a second before speaking.

Jisung - If I ask for a chance again, will you give that to me?

Jisung again asked, but what made Felix feel miserable was that he won't be able to say it. Why would he? Jisung broke his heart before and now he was letting Jisung do it again. And then finally he spoke, "No, maybe I should really move on." He said, before his eyes finally moved away from Jisung and he step back. "You should go now." Felix said, but before he could take further steps back, Jisung grabbed his arm.

Jisung - You know I said regret each second of our breakup, it was always true...

Jisung said, his hands on Felix, who was stopped for a second. He doesn't want to say those words like that night but he still did. "I always hated our separation too." Felix said, before his expression changed into sadistic and he again spoke. "Because it makes me hate you more, it makes me disgust, it makes me laugh at myself, it makes me just want to run far away, so no one can ever find me." He said, his words giving him deja vu of that.

The conversation going nowhere was frustrating for both of them, like they were stuck together but weren't allowed to get together. And Felix knows it too, he wanted to go back to Jsiung, but wasn't it too soon to forgive him? Is he really that easy? What if Jisung again broke up? Then??

Jisung swallowed but his eyes left Felix for a second even. "I don't want to fight anymore."

Felix hesitated, fingers tightening around his tiny fist. "Then why did throw me away when I just wanted to see success in front of me?" Felix shouted, yanking his arms away from Jisung, who instanly flinched. That was it, wasn't it? the final connecting them.