OPEN UP(MEGYONCÉ)

TWENTY-THREE

1 Week Later...

August 27th, 2017

Bey Pov

"Come on babe, you gotta come eat." I told Megan. This whole week has been a struggle for her. I can tell shes mentally tired and it feels like she is just shutting down. I can tell she hasn't been sleeping because of the bags under her eyes.

After her second therapy session a few days ago she hasn't been herself at all. She won't tell me what they talked about but I can tell it hit her hard.

"Bey no...I'm not hungry." She mumbled, making herself dead weight so it would be harder for me to pick her up.

"Mama please...just take a little bit for me or if not for me do it for Azari." I begged. She laid and stared into space before sighing.

"Fine just one bite." I smiled and picked up a little bit of everything off the plate. I went out and bought some breakfast foods for her and Azari to eat because I can't cook as you all know.

When she sat up I fed her the food and made sure she chewed and swallowed. I found out she had been eating food and chewing it then spitting it out.

"Ok Bey, I'm done." I shook my head no and put more food and the fork. Obviously I wasn't gonna just let her eat one bite.

"Uh, uh baby, cmon and eat another bite please." I said softly. She rolled her eyes and opened her mouth taking the food into her mouth. I smiled and continued to feed her since she wasn't really fighting me anymore.

I was able to feed her half of the plate before she wouldn't eat anymore.

I'm just glad she ate something.

I sat the plate to the side and climbed in the bed next to Megan. She was back staring off into space and it always made me wonder what she was thinking in that pretty little head.

I pulled her into my lap and she finally looked at me "Talk to me Meg, you always know I'm here to listen baby" I said gently caressing her thigh. She let out a deep breath and started fiddling with her fingers.

"I-It's just a lot Beyonce...I really don't know how much more I can take." Her voice cracked as she said that and my heart broke for her.

I stayed quiet and let her talk, while offering her the most comfort I can give "I-I know it's not my fault but I can't help but feel like it is Beyonce. I did so many fucked up things when I was younger Beyonce, you don't even know the half of it. I could've done things differently but I chose not to." She wiped her tears as she spoke, trying to keep herself together.

"D-During my last therapy session my therapist had me sit, close my eyes, and remember every last traumatic thing that has happened to me. I've been blocking out most of it and during just those ten minutes of me remembering everything Beyonce, I...why was I so desperate? If I didn't take that job from your father I would've been just fine. I-I wouldn't have met Pardi...." After that she broke down in my arms. I held her close and rocked her side to side, wiping her tears.

After a few minutes her cries quieted down "bey..." She said lowly.

"Yes pretty girl?" I replied.

"if I disapeared would you take care of Azari?" She mumbled. I didn't like that question one bit.

"I'll always take care of the BOTH of you Megan, you're not disappearing." I stated, looking down at her.

"I know...but if Beyonce...would you?" Of course I would but I don't like what Megan is trying to insinuate.

I sighed "Yes Megan..I would." I stated.

Especially with the possibility of Azari being my child.

I've been wanting to talk to Megan about that but so much stuff has been happening I'm not sure when would be the right time.

I heard the bedroom door and open and a tear faced Azari walk in. Megan quickly started wiping her face, while I got up to go attend to Azari. "What happened princess?" I said softly, wiping her tears off her face.

She whined and stuffed her face in my neck. We've been trying to work with her on getting back to using her words "In order for us to comfort you in the best way you've gotta use your words Zari." I said softly, rubbing her back.

"Bad dream.." I heard her mumble. Azari has been having constant nightmares and bad dreams. She doesn't get a break and it even happens when she's just simply taking a nap.

"You wanna lay down with mommy?" I asked softy. I felt her nod against my neck and I went to give her to Megan, which of course she grabbed her from me.

Azari got comfortable on top of Megan, grabbing onto a piece of Megan's hair. Megan explained to me than Azari always did that when she was a baby for comfort.

I find it adorable.

Regardless of how mentally strained Megan is right now she will always give her attention to Azari when she needs it. That's what makes her an amazing mom and I'll never let her forget or doubt herself.

Ever.

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A little more into Megan's therapy progress! Why do you guys think? Megan talking about disappearing? Beyoncé being supportive? Do you think Megan will do anything drastic? Azari having bad dreams and nightmares? Let me know!

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