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Crushing on your bestfriend...the struggle is real(#1)

Well fuck..

Hello everyone!!! Amber here and i am in a pretty big predicament at the moment that has caused me to go balls to the walls crazy!!! I like my best friend!!! /-;
He is about a year older than me and he is a football player and yeah he has always been there for me ever since the beginning of 8th grade! We are both going into 9th grade next year.
So i have only known him for a year yet we became soooo close!

We met back in the beginning of 8th grade in my Advisory/Home-room class. We were all put into tables and i happened to be put in his. Now all my other best friends know him so i knew who he was,i was just always to scared to talk to him! Why? Because he is one of the most popular guys in the school! Like damn he is hot!! For the first 2 weeks of school we didnt really talk until one of the other girls in our group made me laugh really hard and i like added onto her joke and it made him laugh and then he was like
"Thats the first time you have ever talk" and i was like fuckkkkkkk! So finally i decided to start talking more since there was no way of getting out of it.
That day in advisory was so funny probably one of the best day i had!
I soon realized i had 3 more classes with him!! I had him for 2nd 3rd 4th and 6th period. 5th period was lunch so that doesn't really count.
So we basically had 4 periods in a row!! So naturally we would basically walk together to class.

The school year went buy and i never really thought of him in that way. We finally get to around January and i started dating my ex boyfriend again! That was a shitty idea!!! Even though i thought he was the love of my life after 5 months he became a DICK FACE MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!!.... and i broke uo with him! Best decision ever!!!!!!
So after that a couple week late me and you know who (not gonna give a name) started talking alot!!! And i mean ALOT!!! finally here we are at this day we have been hanging out a lot and been texting pretty much everyday! I didnt really figure it out until like a couple weeks back when we went swimming at my aunts house.
We was being super flirty and everyone could see it. He even helped my aunt fix her window! And thats when i kinda realized it and i was scared shitless!!!
1. Because this is my best friend if i fuck it up our whole friendship is over.
And 2. THIS IS MY FUCKING BEST FRIEND WHO IS A POPULAR FOOTBALL PLAYER WHO COULD GET ANY HOE HE WANTS!!!!
so i have 0 chance at all!
But yet everyone thinks it should happed!! Even my family and friends and at school people would ask us if we were dating bc we were that close!!! So yeah i need help major help!!! I like him alot but i dont wanna ruin the friendship we already have!!!

I do have more amazing stories to tell about me and him so whenever i decide to write a chapter it will titled "crushing on your bestfriend...___________(#__)"
So it can kinda be a series! For example
This one is
"Crushing on my bestfriend...The struggle is real(#1)"

So yeah if you have any advice on this problem please help me idk what to do!!!!!
And if u have any questions or need advice from me commet that as well and as always....
PEACE OUT CAKES STAY FROSTY!!!!!!;*