Goal ~ carlando

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" what?" I say confused because that was not what I expected to hear come from his mouth.

"Shit, I would love getting used to this but I don't want to break your heart." Carlos say, I can hear the angst behind his voice. Which makes me a little sad because there is no way that he would break my heart. I trust him. And if he does break my heart it's on me.

" You won't." I answer, sure of myself while my voice is trailing off with sleep.

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I wake up to the sound of someone pounding on the door. Carlos has already woken up from it and is quickly getting his clothes on.

Not knowing what to do I sit, my body aches from last night as memories flashes back to my mind and a smile spreads on my lips.

" Lando, before I open please just promise me that you'll let me explain after. Daniel doesn't know what he's talking about." Carlos say with a serious face looking straight into my eyes.

" What? Daniel?" I say in both morning confusion and because I have no clue what he's talking about.

" Just promise me you'll hear me out." Carlos say not helping with my confusion. I only nod and he stares into my eyes with pure regret flooding through his face. Carlos is about to say something but is interrupted by banging on the door again.

"Open the door, Sainz. I wanna see if you did it. It was the last day you had before I won." Daniel say with both frustration and smugness on the other side of the door.

Before I can look back from the door to Carlos he's off towards the door.

"Mierda, this was never supposed to happen." Carlos curse under his breath as he drags his hands through his hair in frustration.

When he unlocks the door Daniel burst into the room and I quickly bring the covers higher up trying to hide what I can.

" You fucking did it man. Every goddam time." Daniel say embracing Carlos with a smile, with a hint of disappointment in his voice. " I'm not gonna lie, I really believed in you Lando. Either that Carlos would fall for you or that you had some fucking self respect." He say looking at me now.

" What?" I say in confusion my voice breaking from panic.

" Well at least after max talked to you I thought you would have enough self respect to not let Carlos fuck you."  Daniel say and look towards the door where I find max standing looking sad and anxious.

"Daniel, he doesn't know." Max say looking at Daniel not daring to look at me, even when I desperately look at him searching for something.

" You didn't tell him the story?" Carlos say with a voice I can't read, maybe frustration or pain. I look even more desperately at Carlos, who meets my eyes. The regret from before is gone and replaced by pain.

" I couldn't." They just stand there in silence looking at each other not uttering a single word, waiting for the other one to say something.

"Omg I can't take this anymore, poor Lando is just sitting here with no fucking clue what you two are talking about. And none of you have the decency to break it to him. Do anyone want to be my guest or do I have to do it?" Daniel breaks the silence but this time with not the same smugness in his voice.

Carlos and Max still say nothing just looking down at the floor in shame.

" Ugh, well Lando, it all started when Carlos's roommate left because Carlos fucked him so I and Carlos decided to do this bet, where I would get something I want from him or he would get money from me for parties and stupid things like that, this was determined by if he could fuck his roommate on a time limit." I interrupt Daniel with a no that came out lower and more broken than I meant.

" no" I say again trying to make the sound more hearable. I shake my head looking between max and Carlos while putting the puzzle pieces together. Tears are starting to build in my eyes and none of them will look at me.

" This is both the best and worst thing in this whole game but right now it's the worst so I'll leave. Sorry mate usually someone tells them or no feelings are involved. " Daniel say looking at me with sadness then walking towards the door stopping in front of max. " You coming max?"

Daniel does not get an answer so he continues walking out of the door whispering something under his breath but not loud enough for me to hear.

" I'm so sorry, Lando. Daniel is an ass." Carlos say. The first one to make a move towards me as I break down in tears.

" I could not give to fucks about Daniel." I raise my voice, letting the anger flood through my body. I'm not even mad at them. I'm mad at myself for letting this happen again. How could I be so fucking blind. " I expected nothing from him. But you were my- I don't know but I liked you and Max , I thought you were my friend."

" Lando, I like you too. It's was not just a game for me." Carlos say with a broken smile on his lips, almost begging me to hear him and listen. He goes for my hand to hold it but I pull it away.

" Out." I tell him trying to keep my voice steady and holding in the rest of my tears.

" please-" Carlos pleads

" No, out." I scream this time my voice breaking. Carlos backs away in shook, leaving the room in shame.

I let my back rest on the wall, trying to breathe. Max walks slowly and quietly towards me, giving me time to tell him to leave but I let him come closer. He sits down next to me, not touching me but close enough for me to feel the body heat from him.

" Lando." Max barely dare to say.

" No, please. I can't. Let me think." And max lets me. We sit there in silence for a long time.

" Why didn't you tell me?" I ask because that's the part I can't wrap my head around. Carlos and Daniel being assholes I could have probably seen coming but max.

" I don't know, I just-" max starts but having a hard time getting his words out. " Lando, you are my first real friend in a long time. You made me feel like I was someone again and deserved to be loved. I've been an ass to you for the past days and if I could go back in time I would change it all." Max turns his head and looks so genuine when he says those words so I can't help but let a little smile appear while tears forms in my eyes again.

" Just please let me tell you the whole story before you throw me out." Max say and all I can do is nod. " When I first realized you were paired with Carlos I was going to tell you but Daniel told me that they weren't doing it this time and that Carlos genuinely liked you and begged me to not tell you about his history. But at the last party when you and Carlos was getting McDonald's-"