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Gunjan was smiling but samrat was shocked as he saw benji alongwith Ila.ila was very contented to c her son after so many years.She noticed samrat getting moved from there that made her quite dreary.gunjan followed samrat and get herself ready to confront.
"Chashmish mera peecha kyun kar rhi ho"he screamed but gunjan remained silent
"Kyun tum meri life ki saari problem solve krne pe tuli hui ho.ek minute tumne muje jaanbujkar Mumbai bulaya na aur mai samaj nhi paya"he continued that made gunjan sulken
Gunjan:samrat mai tumhe kuchh samjana chahti hoon
Samrat:kya samjhaogi chashmish.. guilty feel kar rha hoon aur andar hi andar.khaskar apni ma ki ankhon mei wo complaint na dekhkar.kitna bura kiya Maine apne parents ke sath but still they didn't ever expressed there disappointment.papa gujar gye mai unki rites mei Shamil nhi tha but unke gujarne ke baad ma ka kya haal hua hoga Maine phone kar ke Janna jruri nhi samja
Gunjan:samrat tum yaad karo tumne hi muje samjaya tha na ki ma baap ko hum apne aapse alag kar skte hain lekin ma baap hume nhi
Samrat:yahi tou dikkat hai ki ma baap hume kabhi apne aap se alag nhi kar skte
Gunjan:aur hum bhi nhi bahar videshon mei bachhe alag ho jate hain lekin hume tou bachpan se yahi sikhaya gya hai ki ma baap ki dekhbhal krnaa sbse bada punya Hota hai.and I know that u love ur parents a lot

"Dude gunjan theek keh rhi aur samrat aunty needs u"
said benji.
Samrat:lekin mai tou unki ankhon mei dekne Layak hi nhi hoon
Gunjan:tum apna ghar chhorke gye the tou thora tou awkwardness hoga na tumhare aur aunty ke beech ke equation ko fill krne mei thora wakt tou lagega na
Samrat:I know that ma muje kavi guilty feel nhi karwayegi.But still mujme itni himmat nhi hai aur uss ghar mei mere pita ki photo se mai ankhen mila paunga v ya nhi,agar mila v lunga tou v muje andar hi andar ek chubhan tou hogi hi
Gunjan:samrat tumne apne pita ko khoya hai agar apni ma ko v akele chhor ke chale jaoge qur wo tumhare peeche dam tod degi tou I swear tum apne aapko kabhi maaf nhi kar paoge.Tum pachtaoge ki tumhe mouka mila tha apni ma se maafi mangneka,unke sath rhneka but tumne gawa diya.aur I swear tumhari ma tumhe kavi guilt nhi feel krwayegi coz she is ur family.infact tum apni ma mei apne pita ki jhalak dekhoge.u know what jab Maine mayank bhaiya ko khoya tha tou I was feeling parentless,muje mayank bhaiya mumma papa se jyada mera khyal rkte the apni beti ki tarah.tou obviously lagega hi but unke Jane ke bbaad papa se mai close ho gyi aur phir mumma se v.And u will not blv mai aaj bhut jyada khush hoon mayank bhaiya aaj meri achhi yaadon mei hai.I feel that he is alive now...whenever I look at mumma papa.tumv waisa hi feel karoge dekna apni ma se jab miloge tou tum apne papa ko unme zinda paoge.
Benji:samrat Gunjan theek keh rh
"Rehnei do isey apna beta Hota apna khoon Hota tou shayad chhod ke nhi jata.Mai iski souteli ma hoon na,asli ma rhti tou ghar chhodne se phle sou baar sochta,sou baar nhi hazaaar baar kya nhi kiya iske liye lekin phir v muje ye sila mila.Meri kya halat hui hogi isne socha hoga,lekin phone krna jruri nhi samjha,sauteli ma hoon na"said Ila and started to move back.
Suddenly she realised a pair of strong arms wrapping her from behind.
"Chhoro muje"sobbed Ila
"Dikhadiya apna soutelapan"asked samrat in tears.
Ila:tumne jab dikhadiya tou mai kyun na dikhaun
Samrat:m sry...msry muje apse maafi chahiye.Mujme himmat hi nhi thi apko face krne ki.dad ko face krne ki,unke antim rites ke wakt mujme moujud hone ki himmat hi nhi,I was a coward.I was on stage when I heard about the passing away of dad from benji.muje laga ki mai usi wakt chala jaun but fir Maine socha ki kya munh leke jaunga.
Ila:tumne apni sochi meri nhi sochi so selfish u r
Samrat:mai hoon selfish isliye tou mai kavi sukh se reh nhi paya sare sukh hote hue v.i missed u mumma...I missed papa's frown whenever I was about to enter the stage

"Kaam pe hi dhyan diya itne saal tak khana peena chhor diya tha kya"asked Ola
Samrat:aap jo nhi thi wahan
Ila:jab ghar chhorke gye the tou muje bata ke jate mai v chalti.
Samrat:aap chale aate tou papa ka khyal kaun rkta
Ila:Sach mei u r selfish
Samrat:isliye mai aur meri selfishness hi wajah rhi hai papa ke health detoriation ka karan
Ila:health tou meri v deteriorate hui but tumhe tou bas sirf apne papa ki padi hai.
Samrat:ab nhi hoga coz ab se mai apke sath hoon
Ila:Sachi