The Knight Nursery - One shots

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Heavy TW!!!!!
Alcohol abuse and getting drunk
Bad mental health
Characters death!!!!!!!!!
Sad and upsetting topics

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And don't hate me (too much)

What if the light one day just disappeared?
It would be cold & dark, wouldn't it?
What if there wouldn't be anything to hold onto anymore?
You would just let go, wouldn't you?
What if all your dreams get destroyed?
You would rather stop dreaming, wouldn't you?

That happened to her.
Her light vanished.
She couldn't hold onto anything anymore.
Her dreams got destroyed.

And that even if everything was so perfect. Was like she had always wanted it...
She thought her dreams finally came true. And they did. But it was only just for a moment.

And now she is in the bar. Downing one glass after another.
She doesn't know how many she already had and not even god knows how much more she will drink.

Just as a familiar voice appears behind her.
She doesn't hear it. She doesn't know who the person is the woman talks about. She just knows, that's not her.

"Hey are you even here with me?"
Silence dances around in her mind.
"Sorscha!"
Who is that Sorscha?! Why is she not her? She repeats the name in her head but can't seem to connect the dots. She is not Sorscha.

The red head looks at her colleague and... friend. Good friend. The mother of her goddaughter. Quinn. She is with Winter at the moment. She actually was with Autumn and Winter but Autumn knew her friend needed her.

"Shut up." She downs another glass of whiskey.

"Sorscha! Pull yourself together! For your daughters sake! The daughter of Clodagh and you!"

Clodagh. A pang hits Sorschas chest again and she looks up, for the very first time this night.
She realises who is talking to her.
But she still doesn't know who that Sorscha she talks about is.

As Autumn sees her friend she is shocked. She's never seen the ginger haired woman like this.
Broken and empty.
Her light is gone.
The normally shining and wide eyes are now dull and small. Tearfilled.

"Sorscha come... let me take you home with me. To your daughter." Autumns voice is soft and comforting. Nothing left of the normally cold and distant voice.

"I don't... have a home... anymore."
The word leaves Sorschas mouth and just in that moment she breaks down in the arms of her friend.

Her whole body shakes. Her sobs are deafning. And she screams loudly.
The eyes of the whole bar are on her now but she doesn't care anymore.
The only pair of eyes she wants on her are gone now.
The older one just holds her tight and strokes through her hair.

"Come Sorscha, I will bring you to your daughter. Winter and I will protect you and help you, okay?"

She just nods. If she could... she would immediatly switch places with her wife. But she can't. Clodagh wouldn't have wanted that for her.

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"Keep Quinn safe. Please... Sorscha, promise you will... I love you..."

"I promise mó storín... I will keep Quinn safe... I love you too..." hot and heavy tears run down her cheeks.

"I love you too!! Please don't give up!!! Hang on!!! Clodagh please! CLODAGH!!!!"
A loud and painful scream. The paramedics flinch slightly as the psychologist tries to calm Sorscha down. He knew it's too late.
And now Sorscha hears that too.
A flat line. A long and painful beep.