Vauseman Vs Nichman

She's Gone

3 hours and 45 minutes since Piper was sent to SHU. Everyone in the group was silent. No one had spoken to each other since Piper's absence. Nicky wasn't talking to anyone, she just stat in her bunk staring at the ceiling. Alex went to go and see her to make sure she was alright. Alex took a deep breathe before sitting in her own bunk. "Hey... Nicky" whispered Alex unsure of what Nicky would say. Nicky remained quiet. She didn't know what caused Alex to lash out on Piper or vise versa but she wasn't in the right state of mind to find out the answers to her questions. Alex sighed. "Rule Number one never fall in love with a straight girl". Nicky rolled over to face the wall blocking out Alex's comment. Ashley came into her bunk. Alex smiled and kissed her cheek. Within a 5 minute a span. They were making out. Ashley was on top of Alex. Nicky woke up to their sex. Nicky tried to let them get on with it. "Alright! I get it you two wanna fuck! But do it in the showers and not in my cube!" Nicky roared. Ashley was naked on top of Alex who was also naked. Nicky covered her eyes as she left to go to what used to be Piper's favorite spot. "Shit" whispered Alex. "She's fine baby, she's just worried about that bitch piper" whispered Ashley as she continued to kiss Alex everywhere. 

Nicky was never the type to lash out. She usually just had sex to get over her feelings. But this time she was punching the tree closest to the greenhouse. Suddenly a piece of paper flew out of the tree.  Nicky caught it. It was Addressed to Alex and it was in Piper's handwriting. Nicky could've been a bad person and opened it. But she knew somehow piper wouldn't like that too much. So she took the letter back to a finally fully clothed Alex. "Here.Found this. It's for you" Nicky said whilst handing the thick envelope to Alex. "Where did you find this?" Alex asked before Nicky walked away. "Near the greenhouse" Nicky said whilst getting into her bunk to stare at the ceiling again. Alex made her way to the library where she made certain no one would disturb her whilst she was reading the letter.

1st Letter: * Addressed just after she left in Paris*

To Alex

You're never going to read this but just on the off chance you ever find this and read it then i guess i better get talking. So i left you in Paris and your mother has died. I attended her funeral hoping you would be there but you weren't. Everyone was asking where you where. I placed your mother's favorite flowers down for you. She loved you so much Al. I still love you Whether you want to believe me or not that's up to you. I had no choice but to leave you. Perhaps i left you at the wrong time but i had to go. If i had stayed you would of hated us even more.  I was just another drug mule to you. At first i was your girlfriend and then as time had it you became more controlling and i just became some reasonably attractive mule to you. Kubra had said i was a distraction and that if i didn't leave you he would hurt you and i just couldn't let that happen. 

From Piper.

Alex ran her fingers over the last few words and wiped away her tears and she opens the second letter. 

To Alex *Written just after Piper came back from SHU*

I just got out of SHU and i realize you and everyone were right i've changed i'm not the collage WASP everyone said i was. I've changed. Prison has changed me. Haha. It's been hard seeing you everywhere. Everywhere with your vause signature eyebrow raise, and your typical resting bitch face. I miss you and i can't tell you this because i don't want to hurt you again. The night of Paris still lives with me and i'm afraid ill hurt you again and i can't bare to do that. I saw you in the showers this morning you looked so beautiful i just wanted to kiss you like we did all so many years ago. I often wander if you think about me too but you probably don't cos i'm just the bitchy Piper. I don't know why i write these, you never read them but in case you read this one. I got a present for you under my bunker in the shoebox. 

From Piper

With the last piece of information she went to Pipers bunk and took out the shoe box from underneath her bed. There was a book. It was the 1st edition of Wuthering Heights one of Alex's favorite books to read. On the inside it read:

To The Love of my life 

Forever Ever 

Pipes xx

She was worried about opening the last one as it was addressed a few weeks ago just after her attack.

To Alex.

You're still in the hospital after Kubra's men attacked you. I wished i had listened to you. If i hadn't of been so selfish maybe you would of been okay. I've heard nothing about you, I don't even know if you're alive. They wouldn't let me near you when they found me with you. Your last words were fuck you Piper, so i really had fucked up. I've been tempted to get myself in trouble so i'll be in Max before you come back so that when you do, i wont be here to hurt you anymore. Everyone has stopped talking to me but i deserve that. I just sit in my own little corner. I haven't made it to many of the meal times.  Stella is in max, i sent her there after i caught her stealing my money, trust no bitch. You were right she was just using me. After this letter i'm going to stop writing to you. I'm going to do what you told me in the greenhouse. I love You Alexandria Vause and I'll never stop. But i know me being with you isn't for the best so i'll leave you alone from now on.

Yours Faithfully,

Piper Chapman.

Alex was lying on her bunk stunned by what she had just read. Her hands trembled as she tried desperately to remember what she had said to Piper that day in the greenhouse. She was terrified to find out but also she wanted to find out what had made Piper finally listen. Alex thought long and hard but couldn't remember. It annoyed her so much that she couldn't remember. Alex had fallen asleep on Piper's bunk. 

The greenhouse memories came flooding back. Alex was watching the scene play out in front of her she watched Piper Seeing herself covered in her own blood. Pale and screaming. Every word she spat blood. She was swearing at Piper blaming this all on her. Alex felt sick to her stomach that she blamed all of this on Piper.  Before Alex could attempt to wake herself up from this nightmare she had stumbled upon she heard the conversation. 

"Stay away from me Piper, Don't come to me ever again". Alex spat words as cold as ice."I'm sorry Alex..."Piper tried to get a word in. "No you don't get to speak just stay the fuck away from me or else." Muttered Alex. "Or Else?"Piper exclaimed. "I'll rat you out about your stupid business and they will throw you in Max where you belong". Blurted out Alex.

Alex woke up in a cold sweat. She didn't even notice that she had somehow gotten back to her bed and that there was a worried pair of brown eyes looking back at her. Ashley had gotten Nicky to carry her back to Alex's bunk so that she wouldn't get into trouble if she were to have been found. "Ashley?" Alex cried out. "I'm here baby i'm here" Ashley said trying to keep Alex calm as possible as to make sure they wouldn't receive a shot for being loud. "It's my fault" Whispered Alex still all worked up. "What's your fault" Asked a curious Ashley. " I did this to Piper, I told her things when i was shot that nobody should ever tell someone" Alex said whilst tears fell. Nicky was sat on her bunk. She could hear Alex's sobs. "What's up with you Vause?" Asked a concerned Nicky, she had never really seen Vause cry before or at least not this much. Alex was slightly smiling at the use of her nickname "I fucked up" cried Alex. "Well i hate be the barer of bad news but that's fucking obvious Vause" replied a stressed out Nicky.  Ashley shot a glare at Nicky. She shrugged and states " I'm just stating the obvious you two need to chill". " I say we just all try to go to sleep and we will talk about this as a group tomorrow" Ashley said whilst cuddling up to a still shaken up Alex. Nicky moved back to face the wall " I just hope She's okay". Alex sighed. 

Down in SHU and Piper was still in the same position. She had'nt really moved execept to go and get food. She promised herself to never make a bad comment about Red's food ever again. Even though it had only been a day she was already missing her bunk. SHU wasn't comfortable. She could hear the screams of all the crazy people. This was her home for now. She had to make do. No idea when she would be allowed out. Her bruises were still swollen. But there was no medical care down here. If they got infected it was her problem. Piper laid on her side facing the wall. "I hope everyone is okay in Litchfield".