After that day with Dan I realised something. I wAnt to spend the rest of my life with this giant wanna be emo. I want to be able to hold him in my arms when he's down and tell him everything's going to be okay. It was now around 7:30 and I decided it was now or never. I got my laptop, logged into fab and messaged Dan.
Hey Dan xx
Hey Phil, you do realise that your sitting next to me and could just say hey irl 😂 xx
No, I need to tell you something and don't have the balls to say it out load so I want to message it to you xx
Oh ok sure. Go ahead, you can tell me anything I won't judge you lion xx
Well, Dan I like you. I really really really like you. Okay, well I love you. And I understand if this is too forward or weird but I can't stand not being able to cuddle you or kiss you so I needed to tell you now or never xx
I looked over at Dan and saw him reading the message. His lips slowly started to curl into a smile. He started typing so I quickly turned my head back to laptop. Suddenly I felt a head turn my head to face Dan. He pushed his laptop off his lap as he closed the gap between us. We started kissing and it was made up of pure love. After a few minutes Dan pulled away and looked into my eyes, "I fucking love you my lion." Dan said as he again pulled me closer and pressed his lips to mine.
That night was by far one of the best nights of my life. I've honestly never felt so wanted. It was the middle of the night and me and Dan had fallen asleep on the couch whilst watching anime. In the middle of the night I felt Dan slip off the sofa slowly. I grabbed his lower arm just before he completely fell off. But that's when he gasped. *shit*. He looked at me then looked at his now blood ridden sleeve. His eyes began to well up with tears as I pulled him close and stroked his hair. "Sshhhh Dan. It will all be okay, go back to sleep babe and we will talk about this tomorrow. Sshhhh come on baby." He looked up at me and nodded, I wrapped him in my arms, kissed his head and fell into a deep sleep.
