Two weeks have gone by. Zach and I exchanged numbers and we had been texting. I locked myself in my room because 1. I hate my family and 2. I hate my family. I like to be alone. But it also reminds me how lonely I actually am. The only friend I had that I liked was Zach. And Stephan who is one of the dorks in one of my classes but he hates me. He is still my friend though. It hadn't rained in a while. I miss it. I hope it comes back soon. When it is sunny outside, I see all of the kids in my neighborhood play in the grass Kicking a soccer ball or playing tag. They look so happy. Their smiles wide on their faces and their laughing contagious to the others. Oh how I wish I could be happy like them. I want to be happy. I crawl into bed and start to cry uncontrollably. How is it possible to be so damn sad all of the damn time? What makes someone so sad that they feel that they need to take something sharp to their body? What makes someone so sad that they want to go to sleep and never wake up? What makes someone so fucking sad?
I wake up around 7:00. I usually wake up around that time for school anyways. I pull myself out of bed, brush my teeth, pull my long hair into a high, messy ponytail, and apply a little bit of makeup. Some BB cream, mascara, eyeliner, blush, and chapstick. I walk back into my bedroom. I slip into my high waited jeans and my brother's grey OBEY that was too small on him so he gave it to me. I tie a flannel around my waist and slip on my low top white converse. I grab my back and walk out the door. I start to walk to school before I hear Zach call my name.
"Get in princess. I don't want you walking to school." I smile and climb into his car.
"Thank you, Zachary."
"Are you okay? You look so.. so sad."
"Hm? Oh no. I'm fine. I was up late. Couldn't sleep." I let a fake laugh escape my lips and he just sighed and focused back on the road.
"Let's do something. Want to go go the zoo?" I gasped.
"Yes! Yes I want to go to the zoo!"
"Haha okay! Let's go!"
Zach and I were going to the zoo. Just us. Me and him. Alone.
When we arrived at the zoo, It was pretty empty. Which I was excited about. No interruptions. Just us alone at the the zoo not focusing on the world around us.
