Four

08: Who I Am

Eilidh's POV
I walk into school with confidence. Usually I stay hidden unless I'm with my friends because I don't feel comfortable. Most of the time it's because of what I'm wearing.

My mum usually chooses what I wear, which is usually pink and dresses and skirts, which I do not like.

This time, I decided to go against my mum, and show Sarah who she is messing with. Yes I know her, yes she is a bïtch.

That is how I knew where to go, that place was her house. Until it got burned down in a fire. She stopped speaking to me after the fire and then she went off the rails, started doing drugs, getting drunk every night. Not only did she become a drug addict she became an alcoholic. She went to rehab but it just made her become a psycho. She went to jail for attempted murder. That is why I am so scared. But I know her, and that attempted murder was her trying to murder me.

But of course I couldn't let Mar and Jenn or anybody else know that. I'm glad Cal hasn't told either, because he was there. He was the one that called the police.

I walked over to Mar and her jaw dropped. She was used to me looking all girly and shy. Pffffttt. No.

I also remembered that I had dyed my hair red this morning. I hated how my mum used to dress me. All girly. I'd rather look punk rock and grunge than anything else. I was wearing (look at the media) with deep red lipstick and black eyeshadow, with thick, black winged eyeliner.

Calum came and he looked over.

"You disobeyed mum, that is something I never thought would happen."

I searched the grounds and saw Michael staring at me. I have had a crush on him for years. I look over at him and wink, then he starts walking over.

Michaels POV

I got to school this morning and started looking for my friends. I found Luke at his locker and said hi and went to find Eilidh. I had a huge crush on her years. I turned the hallway and I saw Calm and Mar and Jenn with a girl I haven't seen before, at least that's what I thought.

She turned around and it was Eilidh she looked all punk rock and just plain beautiful. She winked at me and it sent shivers up my spine. I walked over to her and somehow managed to say hello.

"um eh I uh Hey Eilidh" I said

"Hey Mikey what's up"

"oh um nothing its just I wanted say you look really pretty like this, I mean not that you weren't pretty before but um never mind" I was definitely blushing really hard.

"oh yeah Hi Michael remember us your other friends" Jenn said.

"oh yeah hey" I said bluntly.

I really wasn't interested in talking to any of them but Eilidh but I guess I would have to since they were already in a conversation so I just continued my way to homeroom after I said bye.

Calum's POV

Michael and I have homeroom together and the whole way walking there I was behind him, glaring as though I could maybe put a whole in his back. Hopefully near enough his heart. He is my friend, of course. But I know when my sister has a crush, and Eilidh has had one on him for a while.

But Michael is a troublemaker, a devil. He doesn't belong with Eilidh. To be honest Eilidh should be a devil. She doesn't play by the good rules. She only follows the bad. She is no angel. But her wings could carry her to the clouds. She is too complicated as it is, Michael is just going to change everything completely.

Eilidh's POV

I got home and stepped into my bedroom, changing into a backless black top. Letting my black wings flow freely. Nobody knows. I'm still an angel, just not the type of angel you would think of. I can do good things, and I can do magic. But I just choose to break the rules.

I turn on my Bluetooth and let All Time Low run through my speakers.

I only sing when I'm alone. I used to enter a few talent shows when I was 10. I didn't think I was good, but people said I was. I write songs now too, still think I suck and that is why nobody knows. I always keep my bedroom door locked.

Inside my room may as well be a music studio, tons of band posters, lyric sheets spread across the floor, thousands of instruments, a microphone. I even have some bullet proof glass so nobody will hear me when I do sing or make songs.

"Don't you go, carry on with your life.
It was a one night stand until I woke up next to you."

I changed the song and My House by Pvris came on.

"I feel you in these walls
You're a cold air creeping in
Chill me to my bones and skin
I heard you down the hall
But it's vacant when I'm looking in
Oh, who let you in?
You walk around like you own the place
But you never say anything
I caught you walking straight through my walls
Guess it was all my fault
I think I let you in"

I sang the first verse, thankful nobody could hear. This was my favourite song. But Lynn Gunn has a thing to be a bit screamy. But that's what I love about it.

"Never thought that I would feel like this
Such a mess when I'm in your presence, I've
Had enough, think you've been making me sick
Gotta get you out of my system, yeah
It's my house
And I think it's time to get out
It's my soul
It isn't yours anymore
It's my house
I think it's time to get out
Yeah, I think it's time to get out"

I belted out the chorus, smiling till my cheeks hurt.

"You're at my bedroom door
Heard your footsteps on the floor
Closer than ever before
And now you're in my room
You're a cold air creeping through
Under sheets avoiding you
You walk around I can hear you pace
Circling my bed frame
Oh, but now we're face to face
Head on my pillowcase
But darling, you can't stay

Never thought that I would feel like this
Such a mess when I'm in your presence, I've
Had enough, think you've been making me sick
Gotta get you out of my system, yeah
It's my house
And I think it's time to get out
It's my soul
It isn't yours anymore
It's my house
And I think it's time to get out
Yeah, I think it's time to get out

Haven't you heard?
I'm not yours anymore
I'm not yours anymore

It's my soul
(And I think it's time to get out)
Haven't you heard?
I'm not yours anymore
I'm not yours anymore

It's my house

(I feel you in these walls
You're a cold air creeping in
Chill me to my bones and skin)

Never thought that I would feel like this
Such a mess when I'm in your presence, I've
Had enough, think you've been making me sick

It's my house
And I think it's time to get out
It's my soul
It isn't yours anymore
It's my house
I think it's time to get out
Yeah, I think it's time to get out"

As I finished I realised one thing. I had forgotten to lock the door.

"Woah." Calum, Luke, Michael and Ashton breathed.

I am so lucky I put on a hoodie earlier because I was cold. At least they couldn't see my wings. But they had just heard me sing, at the top of my lungs. And play almost every single musical instrument going. I guess you could say I'm a musical prodigy.

They heard me...

"That was amazing." They say, I open my mouth and snap back at them,

"Shut the fück up, it was shît!"

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Hey guys Eilidh wrote the first part and I ended it. Maybe vote/comment if you like it

-Jenn

Hey guys. Hope you liked it. It's actually true. My mum chooses what I wear. And when she doesn't if she doesn't like what I have chosen she would tell me to change. ^^^^^

I actually finished it, I wrote the start, Jenn wrote the middle and I finished it. I like my chapters to at least be 1000 words

- @Lvke_is_my_penguin