Destiel

Castiels point of view

Dean Winchester, the best name I've ever heard. It's hard to look at him without blushing at least a little. His amazing eyes catch me off guard every time I see him. I hope he can say the same about me. I can hardly breath whenever he comes close. Just look at him, but not to hard because he's mine! I'm not sure if he knows how I feel. I really want him to, but at the same time I really don't. ugh! I guess I don't know how I feel about that. I have um those things you have when you sleep, their like visions, oh yeah dream! I have dreams about us being together and having the most beautiful family ever. My baby, my sweet baby. In my dreams we always end up with a little girl. why you ask? I have not a single clue as to why. but for whatever reason it is, it feels right. so, so right. I can't go even half a day without thinking of him and the family I want to have with him. I guess it's, meant to be. I just really really want to hold him in my arms and laugh as we have tickle fights. But, as much as I want this to happen its to perfect to ever come true. it only exists in my dreams sadly.
I couldn't sleep at all last night. I was thinking about him. I'm not sure but I feel like I may be ready to confess my love for Dean. Oh, but I'm so nervous! I don't know if I can! NO! I must do it! For my sake. I can't keep sleep until I tell him. but what do I say? WHAT IF HE GETS FREAKED OUT AND NEVER WANT TO SEE ME AGAIN!! Ugh! Get a hold of yourself! Those are just the what ifs! I'm going to tell him tomorrow. I'll invite him to the coffee shop for a little coffee, and a big secret.