The Life I Live

young and lost #1

At the age of 4 I was young I was lost my mama Was On them drugs She Was the biggest drug dealer she was unfit mother that forgot that she had 8 kids my mother Amanda and my father Gineo they Always Forgot About me and my brothers and older sister. The house We Lived In Had no food no water no nothing they will forget that they at children I grow Up with 6 boys and 1 girl at that moment I felt a long because we all had to defend for ourselves there wasn't no guidance no nothing I was only 4 years old when a man known as my cousin came in the room and molested me I didn't know what to do I was scared I was confused I was crying because I was scared to tell my mom what was going on but I feel like she wouldn't believe me because she never paid attention to me or none of her kids as I should say it was all about her Selling drugs and providing For herself I've never in life thought that My mother and father let their kids go hungry. That caused Us To get put in the system that everyone knows it as foster care. At the age of 5 I was Taken from my mother and father they put us in foster care which They had separated me from my family I was only with my big sister that I call my mom we was going from home to home asking why the Lord to forgive Me because I always thought it was me why we got taken away because I was the only one molested but my mom told everyone something different things like this at the age of 4 & 5  all that I did was pray sometimes my prayers didn't work but I kept trying and trying but I was so young that I didn't understand what was really going on until Sunday night my sister put me on her bed she got on her knees and told me" baby Sister we all that we have we don't have too much family as you can see I will protect you and get you out of here because I don't want you to be here you deserve better I promise you I will never let anyone hurt you anymore those words she told me had me tearing up because I was young do you understand me everybody thought I was lying people thought I was crazy. They betrading me because the man who molested me was my cousin he was older so the lies that he told was better than what I can do it's was like me and my sister against the world . I was young and lost.