The Life I Live

On My Knees Begging God Please #2

Been in foster care for two and a half years nobody's visiting Us no family no friends even when you got visitation rights with your family and they still don't show up makes me feel like Im really alone I mean I only have my sister they split me up from my brothers so I only have my sister. I mean every now and then my mom and dad will always pretends that they cares about us so that they wouldn't have to go to jail and as I became 7 years old little things became clear to me that all I have is one person on my side and that's God every night my sister and I will get on our knees and pray for better day which we really didn't understood what was better days for us but as I look up in the sky and Ask God why you never gave me an answer are At least not in the way that I can understand but it was hard because when my auntie found out that me and my sister and brothers was in the system she came and said I love you guys I love you with all my heart your mom might not care but I do your mom is my big sister and I will always love her but I know the real and I'm gotta fight to get you out I promise. She lived by those words so when 2 full years past we was out the system and got InTo My Auntie care but my Auntie trusted in my mom to visit us while we stayed with her but yet my mom took us and never bring us back to my auntie and my Auntie didn't want to get my mom in any trouble so she just called and called hoping that she'll asnswer her phone if she was going to bring us back but it was Only So much that My Auntie can take because she had 2 of her own kids and she didn't want the police and social workers at her door because she don't want Her Kids to get involved but it was like hell being back with our mom because she had no experience in raising kids her mom which is my grandmother raise my oldest brother so she was never in my oldest brother life as well. but my grandmother had passed away in her sleep so than it lead my mother into a dark path something that she couldn't get out of something that she wanted all her kids to feel it was like we didn't have the a mother well we did but not I'm not a good one all the fusing and beating she did to us set Us At a breaking point that we didn't want to be on this Earth no more my sister pulled me to the side and told me I don't know what else to do baby sister I'm tired I thought I could be strong for the both of us but I don't think I can't anymore.so I felt alone all over again now I'm on my knees begging God please help me.