The Life I Live

why Am I Here #3

After everything is said and done I asked God why am I still here because I can only take so much my mama took me and my sister from my auntie house and it has been downhill I've been getting beat Lil water holes sleeping in cars then at different people houses just me and my sister I asked my mom why she doing this to us she said this is what I have to go through as a woman so its only right if I show my only 2 girls what it feels like I have no shame no regrets and in what I have done ill show y'all how I was when I was young. I told my mom you post to show Us better this is my not better this is the worst. This is hell I hate it here. she slapped me and punched Me in my face and said oh well I'm your mom I do whatever I want and when I want if you don't like it then you can just leave I wanted to leave but it was so dark outside I had nowhere to go I'm only 7 years old so I didn't know what to do my sister looked at me and told me just to be quiet but I'm asking her why us though what do we do so wrong we didn't ask to be here and my sister looked at me and started crying and said it's going to get better little sister just bear with me I'm only one person sis I can't do everything by myself I'm trying hard to get you to understand I just want you to know that I love you and whatever happened to my rock and my sister and I said why you telling me this she said because I'm finna go do some stuff and I don't know where I'm going to be afterwards I told her sis please don't leave me I don't want to be here with her please. My sister walked out the door and said I'll be back stay up I said okay as soon as my sister walk out the door my mom grabbed me by my hair and told me to go make my dad a drink and I told her why I don't like alcohol she said you're going to like whatever I want you To like. I looked at her and said I wish I never was Never Born.She looked in my face and said I Brong you into this world I can take you out you can pick what do you want to do. I started crying and she slapped me and said ain't no need for you to be crying its life. I looked at my dad and told him you just going to let Her keep hitting me for nothing. He said that that's your mom I can't do nothing about that I looked at him and said you're dead to me you and her and he looked at me and choke me and said.little girl I will really hurt if that ever come out your mouth again so I just lay down on the floor prayed to the Lord and asked him why am I still here. My sister walked in the door and saw the bruises on my neck and on my face and said I knew I shoulda never left you I'm sorry and we both got on are knees and asked god can you please help us through this I can't take it no more I miss my brothers and my Auntie I just want to go home. Why I can't be like other kids at 4am my father came in the room and got me up I look around and saw ever one sleep I asked him where we going she said shut up we got in the car he still drinking Im in the backseat scared having flashbacks and he touched me and said relax I said why you doing this to me Im your daughter He Didn't say nothing took one more drink and started molesting me I fought as hard as I can I ran in the house telling my sister that My father just molested me she said go tell mom I said she passed out Im crying and yelling telling her to call 911 Police came arrested him.