Please choose me ( Yizhan )

Messy thoughts ll

It was the first day that Ji Yang came to my house to study. But did we really study? No. Instead, we spent the whole time gossiping about one of our omega classmates. How did she even get pregnant? We had no idea.

Ji Yang and I entered Senior High School together.
Our first year was the most fun. That year, I got my first phone. Ji Yang helped me install many social media apps.

On social media, I noticed one thing-everyone was in a relationship. It made me want a relationship too. At least an alpha friend would be nice.

When I told Ji Yang, he said most of his alpha friends were online. I never looked at Ji Yang in a bad way because I trusted him. He wasn't like those flirty omegas. Also, his texting style was weird. He used the strangest emojis-some of them didn't even make sense!

One day, Ji Yang suggested adding me to a chat with his alpha friends.
I said no, but he insisted. One of those alphas was a foreigner.

That alpha messaged me first.
I replied a little. Just casual talking. Nothing serious.
But Cheng Ge noticed a change in me.

That day, Haikuan Ge came to visit Cheng Ge at home. They were newly married. While I was talking to the alpha on my phone, Cheng Ge suddenly took my phone and checked my messages.

It was normal chatting, but a huge drama started at home.
Cheng Ge told Mrs. Xiao about it.
Mrs. Xiao threatened to tell Mr. Xiao.
Then, she confiscated my phone for two days.

When I got my phone back, she had already blocked everyone from my contact list. She also added restrictions to my phone.

After that, my interest in making alpha friends disappeared.
When I told Ji Yang about this, he cursed Cheng Ge a lot.

Days passed.
I spent my time watching videos on my phone.
Even when Mrs. Xiao took my phone, I somehow managed to get it back.
After 10 PM, I was not allowed to use my phone.
They always kept it with them.

One year later...

A new thought entered my mind.
I wanted to learn English.

So, I downloaded a language-learning app.
There, I liked a post by someone.
And that person messaged me.

He was an alpha, 5 years older than me.
He was also learning a new language through that app.

We started talking regularly on the app.
Later, we added each other on social media.

I told Ji Yang about it.
He teased me a little, but then I asked,
"Should I add you to my chat with Bowen?"

Yes, that alpha was Bowen. Lee Bowen.

Days passed.
I started getting the attention and care I always craved.
Slowly, I became attached to Bowen.

When I told Ji Yang, he warned me,
"Don't get too attached. It will hurt later."

Then Ji Yang asked me seriously,
"Do you like Bowen in a romantic way?"

I avoided eye contact and said,
"Look into my eyes and tell me."

Ji Yang teased me even more after that.

I felt like Bowen also liked me.
He posted couple-type reels, tagged me in cute posts, and did a lot more.

One day, I jokingly asked him,
"Do you like me?"

His reply was,
"Yes, I do. But I don't know about you. And I don't want to force you."
He also reminded me,
"You have exams soon."

I told Ji Yang about it.
He was very happy for me.

But suddenly, Bowen changed.
He stopped texting.
He didn't reply like before.