Not as i expected (H2OVanoss/Vanlirious fanfic)

My Past?

Chapter 4

( Same night)

~Dream~

"Evan, please don't leave me"I  pleaded, my hand gripping Evan's wrist. Evan turned around, his owl mask on his face "i won't leave you, i promise i'll be back"he whispered before...locking his lips with mine, I kissed back, enjoying my lips locked with Evan's, it felt so real! as if I was really there kissing him right now , then he pulled away "goodnight Buddy" he whispered and walked away "Wait!"

~End~

I woke up facing  the door where a figure just walked out and closed it- wait.. I sat up and found that I was in my room. wait wasn't I with Vanoss in the living room?

questions began to flood my mind but I pondered on a certain one

"Evan?" I  whispered and knitted my eyebrows, I was calling Vanoss "Evan"in the dream and I was even kissing him!! but..it can't be. Vanoss is his name, not Evan, he would have told me that if it is really his name.

I faced my ceiling, wondering if maybe this was the cause of lying to everyone. yes, I lied to everyone about my real name and  identity. my name is actually Jonathan and my past was darker than everyone put together.I rolled with the story that i once told them...that was just another boy looking for trouble and found one. I was afraid of what the others might think.

but then..Vanoss came to my mind, I'm not sure if he kissed me in real life since I  just found him walking out of the room just mere moments ago.

"Maybe he just brought me here in my room" I thought as my eyelids began to feel heavy and let the darkness consume me. "it will clear out in the morning, eventually"I murmured to myself to sleep.

 (the next morning)

~Wildcat's P.O.V~

"Come on Delirious! You can do better than that, man!" I yelled and watched Delirious run in laps around the training field. this was the third day of his training and i am the one coaching this time. Delirious on the other hand was breathing heavily while running, i can see that he was already dying because of lack of air but of course, not literally. he pushed himself forwards, determined to get the 50 laps done, but in the end, he made it to 43 laps instead.

he stopped and clutched his chest as he breathed hard, I ran towards Delirious and handed him a bottle of water which he took and drank quickly.

"you okay man?" I questioned "yea, i just a few minutes to rest"he replied and sat on a hay bale nearby.

I laughed, but on the corner of my eyes was Vanoss, leaning against the car looking out in the distance. I know that he was thinking about something so deeply and maybe confronting him about that little issue in his head won't be so bad.

"i 'll be back, Delirious"I yelled and ran towards Vanoss.

"i can hear you thinking from miles away, Vanoss"I mimicked Vanoss' voice and approached him , a chuckle escaped Vanoss' mouth as he turned to me "yea. just a few things in my head i guess" he replied scratching his nape. "want to talk about it? "I  asked, hoping to get a yes from Vanoss "well..yea, okay fine."

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~Delirious's P.O.V~

I watched as the two of them talk in the distance, somehow, I felt lonely once again even though my friends are right here with me. I sighed and got up walking inside the barn to relax. I held my water bottle in one hand and took off the mask, turning away from the door.

I sat in a crossed leg position and examined my mask.I shivered for it was always the thing that brings back the past...my past. I could almost hear the haunting screams and see the gruesome blood lying on the carpet.I couldn't stop and forget it and it made me sick. I want a normal life like any people would, I want to live freely and not being tracked down by cops all the time, I want to at least settle down, have the usual wife and kids but it seemed like something was holding me back. although I regretted being a criminal I never did regret meeting the gang and specially Vanoss.